Sunday, February 27, 2005

Good news!

Yay!!! I found out tonight that my bro in law was finally offered a job at Praxair! I know he'll take it, because he said he didn't not really want to move to VA for a job at Lockheed Martin. I'm happy, too!! Although the job at Lockheed would have been great, I wanted them to really stay here. After all, if they had to move, I wouldn't see my little niece much!! So it's really good news that they won't be moving out of the area!! :-D Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! lol

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Hooorayyyyyyyyyyy Where is praxair /// teehee Comment from maidothemist - 2/28/05 9:04 PM

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Relaxing, or so I thought

A little earlier, I was cold, and felt like relaxing. So, I thought I'd take a nice bath, with lots of bubbles, candles, a good book, the works! I got in the tub, expecting to relax and get into reading. And then, the monster came knocking at the door. I thought, UGHHHH!! I didn't shut the door all the way! And there was no way I was going to get up now. So, I waited. And a few minutes later, there was the monster, peeking at me from behind the shower curtain! He wanted to play! UGHHHHHH!!! So, I poked the curtain, and he jumped and tried to attack my hand. This went on for a couple minutes, then I stopped. I read my book, and then he was back for more. So, I played again. He left, I read the book. And then round 3. By this time, the water started getting lukewarm, and I was in no mood to add more hot water. So, I finished the chapter I was on, and let the water out. When I got out of the tub, he froze and ran out of the bathroom. I shut the door, but not tight. Several minutes later, the monster was pounding on the door again! UGHHHHH!!! I let him in, he wandered around me, then wanted out. This is what I get for having a cat that's too attached to his mommy!!!! rofl!!

Now the thought is, should I go bother him?? He's sleeping on the kitchen rug right now. Hmmmmmmmm.......

Friday, February 25, 2005

Final thoughts of the day

I'm about to head to bed, but I just had to say that, while I had a pretty gosh darn good day today, I still need to feel just a little trepidatious (my big word for the day!) about Euan. I am so happy that he wrote, but as much as I'm ecstatic over it, I still need to keep my guard up. I get so disappointed when I do talk to him, and then don't hear from him for weeks. Part of me can't wait to talk to him, but the other part of me feels like I might not hear from him again for a while. So, I just have to cool myself down over it, so I won't get so bummed out again if I really don't hear from him for a while! So, now I'm going to bed....just as soon as I finish reading Euan's email again. lol

On cloud nine..heck, just on a cloud!

Ok, this day has just been one of the best I've had in a while! I started out in a good mood, and it has just continued. I began with jammin' to some good hip hop for most of the morning (which is now continuing!). Then, I decided to go to NU to visit my FAO family, and on the way, I stopped by my dad's work to see the ladies there. I brought my bracelets with me, and by the time I left my dad's work and NU, I had made $42!! Yaaaaaay!!!! My FAO family is doing well, and it was good to see them! I love going back there to see how they are doing. The four years working there were very nice, besides the fact that it can get so crazy during certain times!

So, on the way home from NU, I stopped by Blackwinds to meet Mo. She wanted to get another betta, and so did I. We both walked out of there with two...oops!! But they are so darn beautiful!! So now I have six of them, one in almost every room in the house. I'm a betta addict, I know! lol

To make my day even better, I came home to discover that I had email from Euan!!!! I hadn't heard from him in over a month, and I had given up hope. He wrote to say that he had mild congestive heart failure, so he was in the hospital for a while. So now he has to keep from working for a while, and he'll be able to talk more. He also still wants to meet me, which makes me happy too!! I just can't wait to talk to him again, which is really the main thing!! So, I have to say, my day so far has been great!! I hope I can say the same thing several hours from now when I go to bed! lol :-D

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Woohoooo! Although, the congestive heart failure thing doesnt sound good. Do you sell this jewelry online? have I asked you this already? Comment from maidothemist - 2/26/05 1:37 AM

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Tired

I've got that second part of the defensive driving course tomorrow, and I don't feel like going. Of course, I have to go, or I won't be able to get my insurance discount! But it's going to be 3 hours of booooooooooooooooooooooring talk!! lol Oh well, I can doodle, or something. I just hope it goes by quickly!!
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The guy I met a couple weeks ago left me an IM today while I was away from my desk. He said he always seemed to miss me whenever he gets online, b/c I always have an away message up. I haven't talked to him since that day we met for lunch. It's not that he wasn't a nice guy, or that he wasn't good looking or anything. I just didn't feel it. I don't mind being friends, but I wasn't sure if was feeling that same way. I had a feeling he liked me more than that. Of course, how could I really know that by just meeting him once? Anyway, the message he left also said that he'd like to just be friends, if I was ok with that. When I read that, I just suddenly felt like a ton of pressure was from my shoulders. I could be just friends, b/c I really don't see being more than that. Anyway, I guess I'm on another journey to start talking to someone else. *sigh*

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Why does meeting and talking to someone else have to be a chore? Why cant it just be a discovery? Girl- I am telling you, as long as you have expectations, you have the opportunity to be disappointed. Just ENJOY yourself. Let someone deserving find YOU. ~Love Sue Comment from maidothemist - 2/26/05 1:35 AM

Sheer laziness!

I don't have lazy days too often anymore, where I've spent almost the entire day on the computer. However, today would be one of those days!! I've been playing this game on Pogo, and it is just addicting. I have done a few things, I must admit: clean the fish bowls, 2 loads of laundry, brush the cat. But for the most part, it's been sitting right here!! I feel a little guilty about it! lol I have been trying to keep myself busy every day, especially with making jewelry. Oh well, I guess everyone needs a day to slack off. I'm off to read my book now, I can't sit here any longer!!

Just a nice day

I spent time grocery shopping with my mom today, and it was nice. The store seemed calm for some reason, maybe it was just the timing or something. But when it's like that, it makes it easier to shop! But being with my mom was fun, we just laughed about things....nothing in particular that I can remember, but that's ok!

When I saw Mandy today, she tried letting me feel Hailey kicking. But, Hailey didn't cooperate. Maybe she doesn't like her Aunt Colleen!! She hasn't even met me yet! lol I can't believe that in maybe a little more than 3 months, I'll be a biological aunt! It still seems surreal to me. I can't believe Mandy is married, and I can't believe she's having a baby. To me, I still feel like only yesterday, we were all playing together as little kids! Time certainly does fly, that's for sure!

Well, I'm late on going to bed again. Oh well, I can't sleep anyway! I'll go soon though! Hopefully. lol

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Snow

Snow
Big fluffly flakes, floating down so slowly
The picturesque wintry scene as I stare out the window
Mesmerized, I feel like I'm watching the snow falling in a snowglobe
Me on the outside looking in
Or is it the other way around?

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I know this feeling! lol Very pretty picture, but lonely Comment from maidothemist - 2/22/05 5:14 PM

Whooo hooo, bring on the good deals at Toys R Us!!

Today I went to Toys R Us with Erin. I LOVE that her sis works there, because she can get such good deals on stuff!! Erin bought a $600 cedar swingset, with 2 slides, awnings over the slides, the works! She paid 18 bucks for it!!! Can you believe it?? It's almost a sin!! lol So today, I got my sister some Avent baby bottles, and a bottle dryer thingy. Plus, with the total amount that Erin and I spent together, I got a free umbrella stroller! So, Erin's sis is going to look for some more stuff for the both of us. I already got a diaper genie for $1.80!! Yes, that's right, I said a buck and 80 cents!! lol Whooo hooo, gotta love it!! :-D

My mood was upbeat today, mainly b/c I was with my best friend, and I got to see her little munchkin for a little bit! I also only felt little heart flutters once or twice, definitely not like almost all the time like last week. Yay! I don't know what caused it, but I hope I'm on the road to not having them anymore!

Well, I guess it's time I hit the hay. I've been doing rather well with the bed-by-midnight thing. Oh wait, it's almost 12:30, I guess I'm not making it tonight. lol Oops!! Well, good night! :-D

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and btw! Wanna do my Christmas shopping? i deserve a few good deals!Comment from maidothemist - 2/22/05 5:16 PM

i hope the fluttery thing was checked out by the dr Comment from maidothemist - 2/22/05 5:15 PM

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Insert a title here (b/c I can't think of any!)

Today wasn't too bad. I went to church with my mom (hooray, week 2 of going to church! lol), and then to the drug store so I could get my prescriptions. I was still feeling a little fluttery with my heart, but today didn't seem as bad as the past week. Hopefully it'll be even better tomorrow! I really didn't do too much today. I've been online mostly, talking with my cuzzy, to Renee, and playing Spades. Kind of a blah day. Oh, I did do my dishes. lol

At church, my mom and I were surrounded by what seemed like a sea of children. lol There were little kids, and a couple babies near us. At one point, I just got a little sad because I know I can never have a baby. At least not physically. But even if I could adopt one day, I can't do it alone. And at the rate I'm going, I don't think it's going to happen. :( I know, I'm feeling sorry for myself again. I guess I can't help it. It's so discouraging to tell someone your life and your situation, only to have them completely disregard you afterward. I get that often. And the times I do actually meet someone that doesn't care about that, I find that I don't seem to see them as someone I'd like to spend time with. Well, that happened the last couple of times. It's all just rather frustrating!

Ok, I must go turn the heat down. It's gosh darn warm in here. lol I looked outside and was surprised to see the snow! Where'd that come from?? lol

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Colleenie Marie!!! dont get me started now! you need to stop worrying about finding someone. there are millions of men out there where at least one of them is the perfect match for you. i dont see why there is a rush to find a man anyways. when the time comes, it will happen and be so perfect and you will be at peace with yourself. and the time will come. please dont rush things and feel sorry for yourself. and for those men who get to know you and then leave because of your situation, then forget them. they werent worth getting to know anyways. and as for children, you are surrounded by children who will grow up and think of you as their aunt, and most likely you will be their favorite aunt in the whole wide world. and you will have a real niece soon too, to keep you happy and busy. and also since you arent allowed to have children, you get to miss out on labor pains and worrying about getting pregnant and starting a family and worrying about having enough money to support a family. you can leave that up to your sisters, where i'm sure they will give you enough nieces and nephews to keep you busy. so live your life and stop worrying!! Comment from balonie24 - 2/21/05 12:46 AM

Oh well, tomorrow's another day

Well, I didn't get to the post office, mainly because it was too yucky and crappy out today!! And COLD. Apparently tomorrow will be that way, too, but I have no choice about going out. I need to get meds at the pharmacy, so I might as well just drop off the mail on the way. I also wasn't feeling all that great today. My heart's been skipping beats lately, and it doesn't make for a great feeling. I get a headache, and sometimes just feel sick to my stomach. I've felt it for most of the week, and I have gotten the feeling before. It usually happens when I'm really stressed. But I'm not feeling stressed now! I have been a little depressed lately, maybe that's it. I just went to the doctor, but of course, I felt ok that day. Oh well, I am hoping to feel better soon, but if not, I'll have to call the doctor about it. :-(

I keep making bracelets, I think I have almost 40 now. The girl who got mine off ebay told me tonight that she just loves it! That makes me feel happy. :-) Both my doctor and her nurse also told me that they would buy one from me. How cool is that?? I'll have to go back there with all of them, maybe I can get a couple other staff members to buy! lol I hope I can get at least some money to save up and use to buy more stuff to make more bracelets, but also to save money for other use. I just can't stand barely making ends meet! It really sucks!! lol

Well, I think I'm off to bed. I've been trying to go to bed by midnight, and for the most part, it's working. I failed last night majorly, though. lol Until next time!.....

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Ughhhhhhh!!!

OK, I just have to vent at the moment!! I'm mad at myself, but now I'm even more mad at the person who shoved the mail I was putting out in my mailbox, back into the mailbox when they put the stupid Pennysaver in there. So, my bills, which will be late (that's the my fault part), will be even more late since Monday is a holiday, and the mail lady didn't know they were there!! UGHHHHHHHH!!!! I'm just mad!!! Don't people pay attention?? They were sticking out of the mailbox quite far enough for someone to see them!! Well, guess I'm off to the stupid mailbox near the post office, not that it'll make much of a difference. >:-O

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Nothing much

Today I went with my mom to part 1 of 2 classes for the defensive driving course for reduction in insurance. Thank goodness it is 2 classes! I can't imagine sitting through an 8 hour course all in one day, 4 hours was bad enough!! Anyway, when we were registering, the course instructor said that I was more than welcome to be there, but to know that the class was structured for drivers ages 50 and up, since it was sponsored by the AARP! No one told me that when I signed up for it! He said I might be bored with some parts, since they would pertain to me. So, I was one of two people under the age of 30 in the class!! rofl!! My mom asked me if I learned anything when it was done, and I said I learned that I am NOT looking forward to being old!! ROFL!! I hope next week's class doesn't go as slow as this one....oh well, at least I'll be getting a 10% discount on my insurance!!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Wait-n-see

Well, I just wrote an email to Euan, to see how he's doing. I doubt he'll answer it, but I guess I just wanted to see if he would. It's been a year since we "met" online, which I can't believe. We made New Year's resolutions to meet each other at some point this year, but at this rate, I don't think it'll happen. I know, we're only a month and a half into 2005 (what??? already??). It just drives me nuts that I can't get ahold of someone who I have such a connection with, and who feels the same way about me (he has told me this a couple times). I keep wondering what more I can do to talk to him, but obviously, it's not me who needs to make the next move. This is why I get so frustrated with guys!! lol Ugh, oh well. I'll just see what happens with this email (which will be nothing), and just let it go. I can't wonder what if forever. Damn it all.

Tiredness

I used my new vacuum today! I know, exciting stuff. lol I was both disgusted and excited at how much it picked up off the rug, and I only did 2 rooms. I have to say, having a bagless vacuum can be revolting. lol As much as I was happy that I did take my time, and I mean lots of time, to do it, I still was pretty tired. More exhausted, actually. It makes me a little sad, too. Something so simple as vacuuming made me so tired. I have to keep reminding myself that I am not normal, at least not physically, like most people. I know I have limits, and I know I like to push them. But being so tired today reminds me that I can't push them!! So, now that I know what my vacuum can do, and how well it works, Mom will have to come over and do it for me like she usually does. lol

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Valentine's Day--well, a little late

Well, today was Valentine's Day. Ok, maybe yesterday, but it still seems like today since I'm still up. Anyway, I had a nice day! I long ago stopped wearing black on this day, and seeing it as a depressing and lonely day for me. I realized a couple years back that I have people in my life that I love, and people who love me, and it does not just have to be a day for husbands, wives, boyfriends and girlfriends. The day is about the love people have for each other. I like to give little somethings to my family and very close friends. This year, instead of buying something individual for everyone, I bought Dove chocolates, Valentine M&M's, and then I made chocolate chip cookies. YUMMMMMM! I have to say so myself. lol I put all the goodies in cute little Valentine ziploc baggies that I found at the Dollar Store. Gotta love the Dollar Store!! The little gifts were enjoyed by all! :D

So am I bitter about Valentine's Day this year at all? Because sometimes I am, just a little tiny bit. No, not really. Not really bitter, per se. I'm just bummed, because it was a year ago this February that I started talking with Euan. I just wish we could talk again, I really do miss him. Kinda silly, it seems, since I haven't even met him yet. Maybe I never will. I sometimes seem hopeful about, and then I lose all that hope when I don't hear from him in weeks. So, that is the only frustration I have this year on Valentine's Day. Other than that, I really did enjoy today. :)

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Hmmm

Today I met Jason, a guy I have been talking to since the holidays. I have to admit, as nice as he is, and seems, I am just not all that into him. He's cute, so that's not the problem. I just don't know what it is, and I felt that way before even meeting him. It really sucks. It's the first time I've met someone from online in over a year and a half, and I'm just not all that thrilled about a possible relationship. I am not giving up totally on him yet. He asked if I'd like to do something again, and I said sure. So, we'll see, I guess.

I guess another thing that is bothering me is the fact that I haven't talked to Euan in over a month now. I certainly hope he's doing well, but I really do miss talking to him a lot. We have such a connection when we talk, and we can talk for hours at a time. Maybe that's a little why I'm not into Jason. We talk, but it's not anything like when I talk with Euan. I just feel like anything I hope for doesn't happen. I hoped for years to be with Tom, and look what happened. I don't even talk to him much now, and when I do, it seems foreign. I hope so badly that Euan and I will meet some day, and it seems like it'll never happen. I hoped that today maybe meeting Jason would be the start of something new, and now I feel like he may just be added to my list of friends. I suppose maybe I'm feeling a little down right now, and I guess I'm entitled! I'm sure my mood will pass, but for right now, I'm just feeling melancholy. :(

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