Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Ramblings

I've been so exhausted for pretty much a week now. I know why, but I'm not going to bore anyone with details. But it's really driving me nuts. My body just feels so weak, and even worse when I try to make myself do something. I still have been walking on the treadmill, but although it refreshes me for a bit, I find myself needing to go rest for awhile after. I hope this ends soon, because I can't take it!!

I've been seeing some of the kids from the middle school a block away walking home with babies in the past few weeks. It must be sex education time. It makes me wonder if they are actually getting anything from caring for these "babies" for a week or two, or however long they have to care for them. I was telling a friend of mine about seeing the kids, and she said she's seen some in the mall recently with the babies. They were using the babies' foreheads as trays and tables. Hmmmmm, something isn't right about this!

I'm getting tired of the snow. It's probably going to melt away tomorrow and Friday, since it'll rain. But cold weather is coming back again for the weekend. When will it end?? I think the groundhog lied when he said we would have an early spring!!

I have been talking online with a guy who sent me a message on my Yahoo personal. We've been chatting for almost a month now. He's pretty cool. I'll probably meet him eventually, but who knows when. We've brought it up, but I think we're just enjoying talking on the computer for now!

I guess that's it for now. I should go take a nap before I really start feeling even more run down. That's all I need is to get sick!

Sunday, February 18, 2007

When A PHriend Becomes An Angel

When A Phriend Becomes An Angel

When a PHriend becomes an angel,
We may feel shocked and very sad.
We may not understand why,
We may feel so very bad.

When a PHriend becomes an angel,
We mourn the life that should have been.
We hoped they’d see more years to come,
More time with family and friends.

When a PHriend becomes an angel,
We begin to have more fears.
When will it be my time to go?
Is it months or maybe years?

But when a Phriend becomes an angel,
We start to also realize.
There will no longer be the hardships,
No more pains and no more cries.

When a PHriend becomes an angel,
They are now in so much peace.
Breathing easier forever more,
Watching over loved ones with such ease.

To my Phriends who have sadly passed away,
So suddenly gone within this year.
Please know how much I love you,
How you have become so dear.

Another PHriend Gone

I went to read the PH message boards today, and got a big shock. Another PHriend has unexpectedly passed away. Jenni posted a message not even a week ago, postponing the support group meeting she was to have this past weekend. No one seems to have any details on what happened, so it's just so hard to believe she's gone. Jenni was definitely the type of person to keep very active, despite having PH. She was a huge driving force in the PH support group for South Carolina. She took trips to faraway lands, and came back with wonderful stories about what she saw. She shared how she felt, but it didn't seem to keep her down. She had a husband and a step-son, and my prayers go out to her family and her friends. May Jenni breathe easy and free now. She was a wonderful soul.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Baby!!

I am once again living life on the internet fastlane.....I got highspeed again today!!!! It's sooooo exciting to be able to ditch the phone and get onto a website without waiting for a good hour for it to load. And I can watch videos!! And get music if I wanted!! I'm just soooo happy!! :-D

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Back Into Exercise!

This week, I began the slow journey of exercising once again. I hadn't really done much of it in January, and I really know that I have to do something. I have been sitting and relaxing way too much in the past couple weeks. Not really much I can do about it, when the weather is so gosh-darn cold outside! It makes me feel so slug-like. So, I started walking again. And I'm proud to say that I walked every single day this week! Now, I'm not walking anywhere near what I used to. This is totally fine, and I keep having to tell myself that. I'm starting all over again, so I don't expect to be walking a mile from the beginning. It is a little tiresome, because I am starting over, but also because it's a little chilly in this room. Breathing cold air is hard on my lungs, so there were a couple days that I was really tired from walking. But for the most part, I did ok. I kept telling myself to just walk a quarter mile. And that's it. Don't push myself, because at least I'm doing it. Yesterday and today, however, I was able to walk half a mile. Great! Doesn't mean I can do it tomorrow, but if I can, yay! If not, a quarter mile is all I'm asking for. Hopefully I can keep building on this and go further, but I have to remind myself that I'm doing the best I can. If I can at least walk every day, it's better than nothing at all!

I've gotten some comments over the past few years, and recently months, that I don't need to worry about exercising. I am so skinny, that it doesn't matter. Well I'd like to say that it matters alot. I don't exercise to lose weight. Not everybody does. Yes, exercising to lose weight is the hugest reason many people exercise. But there are other reasons to do it. Just keeping in shape is one of them. Building muscle is another reason why I exercise. It actually allows me to go a bit further without my legs getting tired. And it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something. I'm exercising to make my bones stronger, to ward off osteoperosis. Let's face it, I'm not getting any younger, people. I know, I know, I'm only 31, but it's better to start now than never!

And another reason I exercise is because now I CAN. I grew up not taking gym or playing any sports because I just couldn't. I would get beyond exhausted and so out of breath if I tried. Ever since being on oxygen and Tracleer, the medicine for my PH, I am amazed at what I can do! If only they had this drug when I was a child. I may not always go long distances before I have to stop walking, but if I had tried walking what I do now when I was a kid, I would be so very very tired. So exercise for me is a sign that I'm doing alot better than I used to!

Sunflower Pictures!

Here is the sunflower painting above the loveseat!
















A close-up!

Friday, February 02, 2007

A Wonderful Gift!

About a year ago, a PHriend asked for some help regarding her medication, and I was able to help her out. She was so grateful that she wanted to do something for me. I knew she loved to paint watercolors, and some of the ones I'd seen were so beautiful! She sent me her website, and after asking about one of the pictures I really liked, she told me that it was already taken. So I asked her if she might be able to create a painting of red sunflowers, something I've wanted for soooooo long. She said she'd love to do it!

She spent many months working on it, worried the whole time that I might be getting frustrated because she was taking so long. I told her it was absolutely no problem! I know what it's like living with PH. Some days are good, some are bad. So I wasn't worried about it! Finally, after several months, she emailed me and said she had it finished! She said she was nervous because she wasn't sure how I'd like it. It came in the mail about a week later, and I absolutely LOVED it!! It was such a huge painting, but I was very excited about putting it up somewhere and admiring it!

I was also very happy because my PHriend got back into painting again because of me. She hadn't painted in quite some time, and my painting was the first one she did that got her back into it. I've seen several of her new paintings, and they are just as lovely as the one she created for me. I'm so happy to have helped her in that respect!

Anyway, the next step was to find a frame for my painting, which wasn't going to be very easy! I needed a frame that was at least 24x36! I finally found one before the holidays at Target, but I didn't have the money right away, so I waited. Eventually the frame was gone. UGH. But on a shopping trip to the Target on the Boulevard, I found it again! So my mom got it for me as a Christmas gift, from her and Lisa. I was sooo happy!!

After getting the frame, I realized I had to buy a matte board for it. When I finally got it, Mandy said she'd cut it for me. I brought the painting over, and she then realized if she cut a hole in the center of the matte board, the sides would be rather thin that she was afraid it might rip. Soooo the decision was made to glue the painting on top of the matte board. She only had rubber cement, which she couldn't breathe because she's pregnant. I took it all home with me, and after a week, eventually decided just to do it myself. Yes, I am hardheaded! lol But I got it done, and after 2 days, I finally had my beautiful painting from my wonderful PHriend in the frame, and then on the wall!! So here are some pics that show my painting. They aren't the best pics, but it gives an idea as to what I get to look at every day. I thanked my PHriend so very much once again after putting the painting up for creating such a wonderful piece. I truly love it!! :)


*UGH, pictures are currently not being posted, so I will try posting them later!!*