Thursday, April 30, 2009

The Cabbage Patch Diaries!


Wow, I didn't realize I had only posted 2 entries previously! I'm so behind!!! The funny thing about this entry is that Kristen, the girl I mentioned, found me on Facebook awhile ago! I should tell her about this! Or maybe not....I did call the songs stupid. LOL!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Movies And Books

I think I'll do a movie and a book review, since it's been a long time! First the book review.
Q&A, by Vikas Swarup, was a great book. It is the book that inspired the movie, Slumdog Millionaire. I went to the library back in February to request the book, and I had to put my name on the waiting list. I totally forgot I had my name on it until I got a call a few weeks ago that I could get it! I love this book just as much as I loved the movie. There are many familiar names in the book, but not too many of the same scenes happened in the movie. Of course, the movie was only inspired by the book. I really enjoyed the story and how well-written it was. I was very surprised when I found out that this was Vikas Swarup's debut novel!! It's sold millions of copies in several different countries, and inspired a film. How the heck does he make his next novel better?? lol I would recommend this if you liked Slumdog Millionaire, or want to learn a little more about Indian culture and life in the slums. I found it very interesting, and I'd give it 2 puppy paws up (oh, Annette, I borrowed your puppies!).

Now for the movie I just watched last night on Pay-Per-View.


I wanted to watch this movie when it came out in the theaters, but it wasn't in every theater, and definitely not around here. I had heard that this was a good movie. It is about an 8yr old boy named Bruno, whose father is a Nazi soldier who gets promoted, and the family has to move into a new house near the country. Far, far back behind the house, beyond the wooded area, the boy sees what he believes is a farm. Unbeknownst to him, it is a concentration camp. He's not allowed to explore behind the house, but one day he finds a way to get back there, and he discovers a little boy sitting on the other side of the barbed wire fence. He continues to try to visit the boy, and they become friends, even though Bruno has no idea why his friend in the striped pajamas cannot play with him. It is a touching movie, but I have to warn anyone who wants to see it that the end is heartbreaking. I couldn't stop crying for 5 minutes after the credits started rolling. And I don't normally cry easily!! This movie is based on the book by John Boyne, so I think that's my new pick for the library!! I'd give this movie 4 paws, also!!

Well I am going to enjoy the day! It's going to be near 85 degrees here, record-breaking for this time of year. I plan on hanging my sheets on the line outside, and maybe go to a couple stores. I really don't know, but I do know I want to enjoy the sun!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Significance

Nine years ago today, I was at my PCP's office for the third time with a major respiratory illness. After examining me, leaving the room for a few minutes, and then coming back in a very serious mode, my doctor told me (with tears in her eyes) to quit my job. I think I was really stunned. Honestly, I don't remember how I felt at that exact moment, but I just remembered asking her to write it down on a piece of paper so that I could give it to my employer as proof she didn't want me working anymore. I left her office with another round of antibiotics, and headed right then and there to the office building for Headstart. I cried all the way there. I composed myself when I got inside, and tried to keep it together when I handed my note over and explained that I needed to stop working, but it was the hardest thing ever. I don't remember much about what happened after that on that day. While it's still on my mind, it is no longer such a tragic part of my life. I look at is as my doctor telling me something that saved my life. Had she never told me to quit, I would have never thought that I needed to quit my job. I might not be here today, because I am hard-headed, and would have kept teaching! I even tell my doctor the few times she has brought that day up, and how hard it was for her to tell me to quit, that she did me such a favor that day. I think she feels a bit better when I tell her that, for I know it was not an easy decision for her to make.

I saw a news story on one of the local news websites just a bit ago saying that today marks the 14th Anniversary of the Oklahoma City Bombing. Wow, 14 years?? I can't believe that much time has gone by. The bomber, Timothy McVeigh, was from this area, and the atomosphere around here was more like shock and awe when it happened. That same day, though, my dad got into a very serious accident at work. I remember working at Niagara University that day, driving home (I had only just gotten my license a couple weeks before that!), and being told that my dad was in the hospital. He had a 2-ton piece of pipe roll over on his legs, only stopping from crushing him because a small piece of cardboard got in the way. He ended up being out of work for quite awhile, and he had a hospital bed in the living room to stay in for several weeks. I am sooooo relieved that nothing more serious happened to him, that was serious enough!! He still has issues he's been dealing with in regards to that accident. But, at least he's still here and doing fairly well!

So I am hoping that one year, April 19th will actually be a very good thing for some very good reason. Then I won't have to remember the tragic things that have happened on this day, even though life after that has turned out alright.

My Life In Holland

Thank you, Nancy, for sharing this with me when I wrote my post last night. It makes sense to me, and I really liked it enough to want to share with others! :)

WELCOME TO HOLLAND
byEmily Perl Kingsley.
c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved.


I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Part Of A Club

I got a call today from an unfamiliar number, and I thought perhaps someone was calling me about my upcoming PH support group meeting. So I answer, and the lady on the other end says, "Colleen?" I said it was me, and she said it didn't sound like me on the phone. Well, I am still a bit stuffed up and nasally, so I know I didn't sound like me, either! She told me it was Sherri, from pulmonary rehab. I love Sherri! She is so sweet, and just hilarious! She was calling me to ask if I'd like to be a part of a little group of women who wear oxygen. They get together for lunch once in awhile. I only know a couple people who go, her and another lady from rehab. She also told me several of the other ladies who go as well. She just thought that I'd like to be a part of the group, and I felt so honored to have her ask me. She told me not to really mention it too much in rehab, since there are other women we don't know very well (at least not yet), and they don't want to make them feel left out (at least for now!). So now I feel like I've been included in some kind of secret society, but it is kinda funny! I'm glad that Sherri asked me. It rather made my day!

As much as I hate having PH sometimes, I am amazed at what this disease has shown me or brought to me in my life in the past several years. I feel like I'm one of the lucky ones. I have always had a caring family who has helped me in many ways over the year. I have come to find rather loyal friends, who have stuck by me even when I have had gone through some really tough times. I have found a new way in life for myself, and that is helping others living with PH, whether I do it through the PHA website, or through my PH support group. I have been able to become part of a fun little group joining together at rehab, for all different reasons, and I feel like I belong. I know people worry about me when I'm not there because they tell me the next time they see me. And now, I have an even smaller group to belong to, women who are living their lives with oxygen. I never imagined my life this way. I had dreams of being a teacher for years, since I was little, and having a job, meeting someone special, and maybe even getting married. So far, that imagination was very brief, and my road in life took a major detour. I am constantly amazed at what God has put in my path during this journey. When I think I can't handle something, something else falls into place. I don't know how to explain it. There are times that I am in awe of what has happened in my life, and I know I'll never understand why my path has gone this way, but I am grateful of having any path at all. I don't know, I feel like I'm rambling. It's a lot of emotions to deal with when your life isn't going the way you planned, BUT, other things are happening that seem even better. I am sure that maybe the way I saw my life happening isn't the plan God had for me in the first place. I have to take that into consideration, too!

I am feeling a little better, despite the fact that yesterday I had major dizzy spells every time I laid down for awhile, and then got up. I nearly fell out of bed yesterday morning when I woke up, I was that dizzy. My doctor wanted me to come in yesterday. Ummm, hello, what point of I'M DIZZY did you not understand?? I couldn't possibly drive, and I had no one to take me. So she called in some ear drops, which my mom picked up for me later on. My mom also brought me 4 bags of random grocery stuff. I've been needing groceries so badly, and I really wanted to go yesterday for a few things. But again, DIZZY killed that plan. I was so relieved she brought me some stuff! I don't know what I'd do without my mom, I really don't!! I tried telling her how much I appreciate the things she does for me, but she cut me off and gave me a great big hug, and just said how she hates to see me sick. I just love my mom!!!

I've used the drops several times. I'm still a little lightheaded at some points, but I think I'm getting better. I don't know, I am really hoping to be a lot better very soon!! I'm tired of dealing with this, and it hasn't even been all that long.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Booooo!

I'm sick. I was really hoping yesterday that the sneezing and the irritated throat I had was just something in the air, but apparently not. I used half a box of Kleenex last night, and I woke up with my throat on fire. Darn it, head cold!! It figures that the weather gets nicer, and I am sick. Why couldn't I have gotten sick in the dead of winter, if I had to get sick at all??? I'm just hoping it doesn't last long. As I recall, the last time I was sick, I had a sore throat that lasted almost a week before I decided to see if it was strep (which it wasn't). At least my sore throat seems to be gone already. I'm just having a problem breathing! My nose is going through periods of time when it's so runny I'm blowing it every 5 minutes. Then I take Revatio. And I can't breathe because my nose gets all stuffed up! You'd think that'd be a good thing, but it's really not! I've been using nasal spray, which does help a bit. But I seriously hate hate hate stuff up my nose. Not like tubing, b/c although that is up my nose, it's not ALL the way up my nose, and coming out the other side. Not like a neti pot, which I keep getting told to use, but I just can't do it. I don't care what people tell me!!! Anywho, I'm sure I've just painted a wonderful sexy picture of myself dripping all over and trying to breathe, so I'm going to just try to go to bed now!!!

Happy Bit Of News!

It's been awhile since I posted any good news out there in the world! I wanted to embed this video in my blog, but the links on Youtube have all been disabled. So, if you haven't seen or heard about Susan Boyle, you might want to click on her name and watch the incredible video! I have seen it three times in the past couple days, including on the news, and I get a bit teary-eyed every time. Talk about judging a book by it's cover....NO one, and I mean NO ONE, could have ever expected that voice to come out of that woman! It lifts my spirits when I watch it, and what makes it even more wonderful is the look of shock and awe on Simon's face!! Enjoy!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

This And That

Well I never sold anything in my store last week. I only had a total of 36 hits on my store (or visits), and that was for an entire day. I was a bit disappointed. I guess I gave it a shot, though! I'm at least glad that all my new pics are up and done, and I won't have to worry about retaking anything.

I had a very nice weekend. Friday I went out to eat with Erin, and then we went back to my house to get Eve, who was waiting there. I drove us to the Wine Bar, and we spent a few hours kickin' back the martinis and just chatting away. Eve and Erin are dealing with really big emotional things right now, and I really feel for both of them. All I can really do for them is keep them in my prayers, even though I wish I could do more.

Saturday night we went to the Easter vigil mass at St. Joseph's church. It was the mass where they baptized, confirmed, and gave Communion for the first time to several people going through RCIA classes for a few months. It was a loooooong Mass. Parts of it were nice, but some parts just dragged on. For the first hour, we sat in candlelight. Everyone had a candlestick, and I kept getting wax dripped onto my fingers, despite the piece of paper that was supposed to help block that. It was cool, though. I liked looking around the church and seeing all the candles, it seemed peaceful to me. It was nice going at night, but I'm not sure I'd do it again next year!

Sunday morning/afternoon was nice and relaxing since I didn't have to worry about going to church. I finally caught up on Lost, which I was three weeks behind in watching! Boy, that show is good!! I made my deviled eggs and jello to bring over to Mandy's house for dinner. My favorite part of dinner was when my niece said, as she was eating her roll, "Hey guys, my bread is missing something. Oh, I know what it is, it's butter!" LOL Then she asked for some butter. It was just too funny, it got us all cracking up! Dinner was very yummy, dessert was delicious, and the pics we took were really cute! I finally have one of me with both my niece and nephew, even though they are watching tv and not paying attention to the fact they were getting their picture taken! I also have a really adorable one of the two of them together on the couch. Not even a minute after that, my nephew tried to bite my niece, and they just started fighting with each other. Ahhhh, siblings. lol

I did three loads of laundry yesterday, filed a year and a half worth of paperwork, and cleaned out my living room table to make room for the candles I got from my candle party a few weeks ago. I was quite busy, and definitely needed a nap in the afternoon!

I went to rehab this morning, and I'm now waiting for the FedEx person to deliver my free crockpot! I do a bunch of surveys for different sites, and one of them rewards you with free merchandise. I had enough points to get a smaller crockpot, so I placed the order last week, and it's coming today. I'm excited!! I can't wait to make something with it. I might try Ellen's crockpot lasagna, then I can have my parents' and Joanie over!!

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

A Bit Excited And Nervous!

I have been preparing my Etsy jewelry store for the past few weeks for some changes. I re-shot pictures of EVERYTHING, because the picture quality of all my items just wasn't up to par. Mandy told me how to take pictures of items close up, and when I got the hang of it, I loved how much better the new pics looked compared to the old! Of course, Etsy won't take the pixel size of the pics I took, so I had to change all of them to make sure the pics could be uploaded onto the site. All of this took many days to get through, between taking the pics, resizing them, and putting the new ones up on the site and taking down the old. But, I got it all finished before I went on vacation!

Etsy has several sections where stores can be featured, and if you would like your store to be in a certain section, you can pay a fee for a slot in that section for a certain day. The thing is, though, it's TOUGH getting a slot! A couple weeks ago, I was going to see about getting a slot that went on sale at 12 noon, and then completely forgot to try to get it. Later that night, a bit after midnight, I remembered and logged onto Etsy to see if there were any slots left. I saw that they listed a Spring Section, so I luckily was able to buy a slot for tomorrow (April 9th)!! So hopefully my store will be viewed by a TON of people, and I sure hope maybe at least one person will make a purchase!!

So if you'd like to visit my store, you can click on the widget in the right hand bar of my blog, or just click here!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Ocean Life

Lisa has made the nursery into an ocean-themed room, which of course, I just LOVE! While we were there, she was continuing the waves she started painting on one of the walls, and I helped her by tracing wave patterns on the other walls so she could just paint them when she had some time. She also started tracing fishies on the water part of the wall, and asked us to paint a fish for her little guy. I wanted to paint oxygen tubing on my fish, or maybe some bling, but sadly that idea got shot down! LOL! That's ok, I like how my fish turned out anyway, mainly because she actually had RED paint!!! Whooo hoooo!! After it dried, I added silver squigglies. My mom painted her fish blue, and added white dots and stripes afterward. My dad painted his fishy hot pink. lol I think he did a really good job! I'm sure my nephew will like to know in the future who painted the fishies, and Lisa will be able to talk about who did what fish and when. I think it was a great idea!






Monday, April 06, 2009

Back To The Crappy Weather!

I got back home from NC on Saturday night around 8:30pm. The trip was a lot better than going down there, I made sure I didn't watch any movies, which is what I think made me get carsick on the way down. I did listen to What About Bob?, but I know the movie by heart, so I really didn't have to watch it! When I got home, I put away most of my stuff, and tried to hang out with Mittens. He was a bit mad at first, and stayed in the cupboard for awhile, but eventually he got over it and wouldn't leave my side. I missed him, too!!

Sunday was rest day. I woke up around 9am, took a shower, and then the fatigue hit me. I just laid low and hung out with the laptop in the bedroom for most of the day! I also got the Partylite stuff from my candle party the weekend before I left, so I sorted that for the people who ordered stuff. I love the things I ended up getting! I'll have to try to take a pic of the reflections candle holder I've loved ever since I saw it several years ago. I put 6 tealights in it, but it gets reflected, so it looks like there are 100s of them. It's sooooo cool!

Today I had bloodwork done, did money stuff at the credit union, and mailed out a couple things before heading back home. I made a couple necklaces for my upstairs neighbor with horse-themed charms that I bought at the Michael's store while I was in NC. She really really loved them when I gave them to her, and said I didn't have to do that! I wanted to give her something for taking care of Mittens while I was gone. I'm glad that at least she likes them both! I took a brief nap in the late afternoon, and made a late dinner. I also watched the SNOW that was outside my windows!! We are supposed to get some more by morning. Grrrrr!!! It makes me wish I was able to stay down in NC another week, or until the nicer weather comes around here again!!!

I'm going to rehab tomorrow, and I'm looking forward to it. I actually missed not going for a week!! I am glad that it seems to be helping me because I did pretty well while I was away. I think lifting weights (I am doing 5lbs right now, 12 repetitions) helped me to be able to hold my nephew for quite some time while I was visiting! I think I'll have to pump way more iron if I want to be able to hold him the next time I see him. LOL! Well anyway, I should get to bed so I have enough energy for tomorrow!