Survivor's Guilt
The moment I was born, I was a sick baby, even though doctors couldn't figure that out until I was 9 months old. I don't know what it's like to be totally healthy. I spent the first 28 years of my life knowing I had 2 holes in my heart, and pulmonary hypertension (PH), although no one really explained that second half to my parents or myself. Then when my daily symptoms of shortness of breath, and extreme fatigue turned into an elephant sitting on my chest constantly, I was eventually introduced to the PH world. I started seeing doctors at the Cleveland Clinic in Ohio who specialized in the disease, plus a cardiologist for adults living with a congenital heart defect. I was eventually started on a PH medication, and that first shipment of medication almost 16 years ago led me to the online world of a PH community. From message boards to chat rooms, I suddenly realized that I WAS NOT ALONE!! The PH world became MY world for so long. I would read messages for hours, replying ...
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When I was growing up, my mother always made sure we unplugged the television and microwave when lightning was in the area. We never used the phone at those times either. One year it struck one of the old trees in the front yard not ten feet from a huge propane tank. The tree lived, but it had a deep scar that took years to heal. Lightning is deadly yet beautiful.
Manny always loves to sit outside and watch stiorms..I get so mad at him...LOL
Hugs...Luv ya ;))
Stay safe Colleen.
Bonnie