Found out what happened :(

I didn't think of it until last night, but this morning I went on my other sn, and put that guy's name on my buddy list. Sure enough, there he was, online. I go back to this sn, and he's not online. He blocked me. :( Why, I don't know. I'm really upset about it, I don't understand what it was that I did or said to make him not want to talk to me anymore. This is why I really hate opening up to people...no wait, opening up to guys. I just feel stupid now, and just really sad. A little angry too. Now I understand why I'll never get married, all guys are the same. :(

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