Showing posts from February, 2006

Oh, Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuudge!

Ralphie and Randy's father died today. Ok, so actually it was Darren McGavin, but I will forever remember him as the foul-mouthed father in A Christmas Story. That movie is one of my all-time favorites! I'm sure there are a lot of people out there who love it, too. And also ones who despise it! LOL Anyway, Darren was 83 years old, and he died of natural causes. He was in many other movies besides A Christmas Story, but he'll probably be remembered most for the role he played in this film. Mainly because it will forever be played for 24 hours on TNT on Christmas!!


I had a dream last night that I can't quite explain. It was one of those very vivid ones, and I almost felt like I was actually right there as it was happening. Like I was actually awake and feeling the events taking place.

I dreamed that my family and my dad's family were in Horseheads, NY, in the front yard of my grandma's house. This doesn't really make sense, since my dad's family lives in Michigan. Anyway, we were all trying to take pictures before saying goodbye. Why we were gathered together, I don't really know. While taking pictures, I spotted a little baby fawn in the grass, and it was very friendly. It let me come over to it, and I was talking to it quietly. It had such soft brown fur, and white little markings all over. It's eyes were wide and the deepest black. It was the cutest thing, and when I pet it, I actually felt like I could feel it's soft fur.

Suddenly out of nowhere comes this huge gigantic weird plane, which then turned into a bi…

American Idol

In my old AOL journal, I posted after almost every American Idol show last season. I love this show, and have been a fan since the first season. That being said, I won't be posting about all the episodes. I think I might have bored some readers, even though this is my journal, and it shouldn't matter what I post. Actually, after going through all my old posts when I was copying and pasting them over to this journal, I bored myself. lol

The only comment I have to make is that from the first performance of Paris Bennett, which was her audition, I knew right away I wanted her to be the American Idol! She's only 17, and she acts much older than that. She is a cute, tiny thing, with a lot of spunk when she sings. There is something about her voice that I absolutely lvoe. Her performance tonight reminded me a lot of Fantasia, another contestant I knew from the beginning I wanted to win, and she did. So, we'll see if Paris can make it all the way to the end. I certainly hope s…

Men *rolling eyes*

I haven't heard from Euan in a couple weeks. Maybe it's been more than that, I can't remember exactly. And it's frustrating. I really thought maybe something could work out between the two of us, but I'm now realizing that it must not have been meant to be.

But at the same time, I still want to be a friend. I know he has been going through a very rough time with his grandmother dying in January. He was extremely close to her. So close that he was asked to write and give her eulogy at her funeral. I totally understand that he really needs and wants some time right now. But not to communicate in any way is something I just don't understand. And it leads me to worry that something else might be wrong. Maybe he's sick? That could always be a possibility, since his health can be as fragile as mine. Or maybe his big project that he's been working on for months now is finally at the finishing point? That would be very exciting! But to not email me…

Complete Ignorance

I was just reading an article about a 24yr old lawyer who decided to decline a job offer through email. The supposed-employer emailed her back his disappointment, which led to another email from her, another from him, and finally a rather childish email from her saying "blah blah blah."

While this doesn't make me mad (I feel bad for her, actually, how stupid can you be??), what makes me mad is a comment later on in the article referring to email gaffes. It gives several examples of stupidity in what was said in emails by "high officials." One of them was from the executive of the drug company that made the banned weight-loss treatment Phen-Fen e-mailing, "Do I have to look forward to spending my waning years writing checks to fat people worried about a silly lung problem?"

While the average person reading the article probably doesn't have a clue what that "silly lung problem" is, I do. That "silly lung problem" is pulmonary hype…

The Results Are In...

My father has prostate cancer. Now while this isn't the best news, it's not devastating, either. He had 6 biopsies done yesterday, and out of the 6, only one came back with cancerous cells. Which, to me, isn't so bad. He is supposed to go to his doctor on Friday to go over the results, and to find out what the next step will be. As far as I know, he'll probably have surgery. But I can't exactly say for sure. All I know is that it isn't as bad as it could be. And prostate cancer is very curable when it is detected early, so I have high hopes that my father will be ok.

Just Some Updates!

Geesh, how time does fly! I thought I had posted a lot sooner than last week, but I guess not. So, here are some updates!

*Friday: I spent a lot of the day sleeping and relaxing because I thought I was getting sick. But I guess I wasn't! My best friend, Eve, came home last weekend for her son's birthday. So we went to dinner on Friday night, and hung out at my house until my other best friend, Erin, called to see if we still wanted to go out. Of course we did! So we went to Shadow, the martini bar that we love. And it was a lot of fun! Erin had to go home about an hour and a half after we got there, but Eve and I stayed until closing. Which was at 3am. We didn't get back to my house until almost 3:30, and then I didn't go to bed until almost 5. I haven't done that in a looooooong time. However, with all the sleep I got Friday, I woke up around 10am on Saturday, and wasn't at all tired! Go figure!

*Saturday: As much as I wasn't tired, I spent the d…


It worked! I don't like the little white box around them, but oh well, what can ya do?? At least I can see them!
<-----Girls' night out!
<-----Boys' night out! Teehee!!

Testing, testing

I downloaded smileys this morning from Smiley Central. I kept seeing the banner ads for them in several different places, and I thought they were cute! I'm just testing them here, crossing my fingers that they work!

Three Little Words

I thought I'd write about three little words next week when it's Valentine's Day. But then I thought, these words don't have to just be said or heard one day out of the year. And they aren't necessarily meant just for significant others.

I love you.

These three little words are not often said enough to people. And I have come to realize that I don't say them often enough to the people I most love and cherish in this world: my family and my friends.

I've been trying to say I love you more to my family, especially. Like yesterday, when I was saying goodbye to my mom out the door after an afternoon of grocery shopping and spending time together. I opened the door again to yell out I love you before she got back into the van. And she turned around, smiled, and said I love you, too.

I know my family knows how much I love them. My friends know how much I truly care for them, but I never say that I love them. Why is that so awkward to say? I really don't…

Disappointing Sunday, Sort Of

I was supposed to hang out with Euan this afternoon. He had asked me last Monday about going to a movie or something this weekend. And when I talked to him last, on Wednesday, he told me he was really looking forward to getting together. I had a feeling I wouldn't be seeing him when I didn't hear from him since then. I finally got email from him this afternoon. He said he felt bad, but he didn't think he could make it for today to hang out. He is still having a rough time dealing with his grandmother's death, which was 2 weeks ago today. I feel bad for him, but I totally understand how it is when you lose someone you love. When my grandfather died, it took me years before I stopped crying every year on the anniversary of his death. My only small complaint is that I wish he could have called me to let me know he didn't feel up to hanging out. I spent half the day wondering if I'd hear from him, and then got his email in the afternoon. But at least I heard f…

It's Official......


I called AOL this afternoon, ready to cancel my account. It really wasn't too bad. The guy on the other end of the phone kept trying to tell me this, and tell me that, so I would hopefully keep my account. When he told me that I could keep AOL for 4.95 a month, so I would have their virus scan software, etc, to keep my computer protected, I finally told him this:

"Sir, no offense, but I don't want to have anything to do with AOL anymore."

He kind of laughed and said he was sorry to hear that. He did tell me that AOL now allows you to keep your screen name for use on, so although I'm free of using the AOL software, I can still use the web address for email. Well, considering that I have told everyone I know I'm using Netzero, I just blocked all mail to my AOL name. I find it funny, though. Why on earth did I keep AOL so long, knowing I could use their website for free email? Oh well, I'm done with them! Yaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!
I've been realizing that I'm not posting too much lately. I must be in a blogging funk, I don't know. Oh well, I'm blogging now!

A lot has happened lately. I finally got my Medicare D crap figured out, only after 8 days of stressing, worrying, taking less of my medicine than I'm supposed to, and getting pissed. Tuesday my lung medicine was delivered, and I almost cried. I know, I'm so dramatic, but you don't know how scary it is to not get the medicine that has made a huge difference in your life because of some politician's assinine decisions. I'm not going to dwell on it now, because I think my blood pressure has been high enough this last week! I got my meds, and I am happy!

My father went for his first appointment with the urologist yesterday. They have scheduled him for biopsies on the 14th. Yes, Valentine's Day. I am praying everything will go well, and that he still won't need surgery or anything. Although I do believe that he wil…