Thursday, December 29, 2005

A Meeting Almost 2 Years In The Making!

Yesterday, I finally met Euan, after almost 2 years of talking to him through email and on the phone. Our New Year resolution for 2005 was to finally meet each other before the year was over. I remember joking that we shouldn't wait until December 31st, either. Well, yesterday was the 27th! So, we cut it pretty close. lol But after all the not knowings, hopings, and wondering if and when it would happen, I am so happy that we finally met!

Euan came to my side of the border, and we met at Tim Horton's, a very popular place that started on his side. lol As soon as I walked in the door, I knew exactly who he was. I had seen pics of him, but he also had a gift for me sitting on the table! I thought, awww, he got me something?? So I went up to him, and we just gave each other a big hug. We chatted for a bit before going to get something to eat. And the rest of the time we spent together went so well! We talked pretty much nonstop the whole time, no awkward pauses, nothing like that at all. It was just a great time! And the gift was a snowglobe, with 2 ice skaters (a guy and a gal). And the guy had a hockey stick, which he said was kind of Canadian, so he thought of us when he bought it. lol I thought it was very sweet!

We talked for a while late last night, and again this morning. We are making plans to get together again in mid-January, since he is moving his office to a new building in the next couple weeks. I am already looking forward to it! :) :) :)

Monday, December 26, 2005

A Rather Amusing Story!

Friday evening, I had been trying to take a nap because I was so tired from being out shopping with my mom. I was half out of it when my house phone rang. I jumped out of bed, feeling weird, but I answer the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hi, is Colleen there?" the lady asked.

"This is she," I answer.

"Oh, hi, this is Lori, your neighbor from next door," she says.

"Oh, hi! How are you?" I ask.

"I'm ok, it doesn't sound like you," Lori answers.

"Oh really? I was just resting, maybe that's why I sound funny" I say.

"Oh, ok," Lori replies. "Well, I wanted to let you know that we're having a Christmas party, so feel free to come over and have some drinks and food."

"Oh how nice!" I said. "Thank you, I'll try to make it over there soon!"

"Ok great, I'll talk to you later!" Lori says, and we end the conversation.

Still dazed, I wander into the bathroom thinking how weird that was. I've never been invited to a neighbor's house for Christmas before. As I'm thinking about this, I realize, I don't have a neighbor named Lori. I even peeked out the window to see if there was anything going on next door. That neighbor's name is Tanya. I think harder about this, and then it dawned on me: Lori had asked for Darlene, not Colleen!! If you had been reading my AOL journal, I had posted about getting Darlene's phone number when I had to get a phone line in the house again. You can read it here if you'd like! So I started laughing hysterically!

Darlene got invited to a party, and didn't even know it!! I hope Lori doesn't think she was trying to avoid her. LOL

A Wonderful Christmas With The Fam!

I had a really nice Christmas with my family on Sunday. Lisa and I went over to my parents' house in the early afternoon, and we helped get food ready for dinner. Everyone else didn't get there until a bit later. We didn't even open gifts until after 4! I got some really nice things, though. I loved spending time with everyone, and it ended up being a fun time!

Hailey was just too cute for words! She definitely had a good first Christmas! She was more interested in eating her gifts than anything, which was funny. She eventually got really tired and cranky, as babies are wont to do, so her parents took her home for bed. Lisa and I came back here a little after 9, and I just talked on the phone for almost 3 hours with a couple friends. Nice way to end the day! :)

Today was resting day. I really wanted to venture out to Target to use my gift card from Joan, but I ended up just staying home. Probably a good thing, so I didn't have to go out there and fight the crowds! I'll use my card eventually, though! I know what I want to use it for, I just need to spend some time in the store comparing products and prices. That could take some time for me. I can't seem to make quick decisions sometimes! lol

Lisa went out to dinner tonight with some friends, so I was dog-sitting for her. Lexie actually did pretty good for quite some time. She even ate her food! The poor thing is having such a hard time adjusting to being here, but I think she's coming around slowly. By the time she's fully adjusted, she'll be going home. lol Lexie kept trying to follow Mittens around the apartment. Mittens kept crying at her to back off. At least he wasn't hissing at her, I'm impressed. About 45 minutes before Lisa came home, Lexie decided to put herself in her crate, and she fell asleep. So I just closed the door to her crate, so she knew to stay in there. She is really a cute dog!

Tomorrow night is martini night at Mandy and Ron's house! I'm looking forward to it. It's nice that they are able to host something now that they have their own house! Hopefully Hailey will be ok with all the people, and will sleep in their bedroom ok. I'd really feel bad if the baby won't go to bed or wakes up constantly from hearing the noise of people! But it should be a lot of fun!

Well I suppose I'll get to bed at a decent time tonight. Being the holiday, I've been going to bed quite late the past few nights. I need to break that habit!! I have a lot to do tomorrow during the day, so off to bed I go!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Whoo Hoo, A Sista In Da House!

My sister, Lisa, arrived here safely a couple hours ago. She went down to our parents' house first, so she didn't come to my house until a little after 11pm. I'm so happy she got here safe and sound!

Her puppy, Lexie, has gotten so big!! She is a black lab, and she reminds us all of our first family dog, Lady. Lisa said she has even called her Lady a couple times. She is very cute, though! She knows tricks and everything! Well, except how to not jump on people. Lisa is still working on that.

Mittens disappeared when Lisa got here. He's currently under my bed, and sadly, I'll have to just go to bed without trying to get him out from under there. I wonder if I'll ever see him again this week. lol

Well, everyone here is sleeping, so I think I'll be on my way, too! The next couple of days will be busy, that's for sure! Merry Christmas to all!! :)

Friday, December 23, 2005

Where'd My Week Go??

I have been meaning to post all week, but things keep happening, or I just don't feel like it! The week went by quickly, though. I can't believe tomorrow is already Friday again. Geesh, will time ever slow down??

I spent this past week still trying to rest, but doing things in the house, too. And doing a few things out and about. I finally got all my gifts wrapped between Monday and Tuesday. What fun that was. Trying to wrap gifts on the floor when you have a cat is quite entertaining and frustrating at the same time! Mittens kept laying down in the space where I wanted to roll out the wrapping paper, and refused to move. When he finally did move, he'd dive-bomb the paper, leaving claw marks in some areas. Or, he'd try to eat the paper. He also kept shoving his little head (the only little thing about him is his head!) into all the gift bags. Then there were the moments that he thought it would be the best time to bite mommy. When that happened, he got booted out of the room, and I'd shut the door in his face. Then I got to hear him cry for 10 minutes until he decided to finally give up. Sooooooo, this is why I'm glad I only wrap a ton of gifts like this once a year. The cat really doesn't make it easy!

I went to the movies last night with Mo and Dee, and Mo's friend from work, along with her friend's sister. We saw The Family Stone, with Sarah Jessica Parker. While there were many funny parts during the movie, I just felt a little lost at some points. I didn't really think it was a great film overall. My friends loved it, however. Oh well, can't win 'em all. lol

We then went to Dunkin Donuts for coffee, and we exchanged gifts. I gave all of my friends jewelry, but I also bought these ornaments that open, and you could put something inside. Soo, I put their jewelry inside the ornament!! Mo and Dee loved the idea, and they loved what I made! Yaaay!! I loved their gifts, too! It was a nice evening spent with a couple of close friends. :)

Today, I went to Starbucks with Dee, and Renee met us there. I know, more coffee. Funny thing is, I don't drink it. lol Renee and I exchanged gifts, and of course, she loved her jewelry, too! Yaay!! She got us a pair of fuzzy socks, they are soooooo soft. I love them, I have 2 pairs already! And she got some lotion from Bath & Body, which you can never go wrong with! We had a great time chatting away for a couple hours there. It was a nice afternoon!

In between all these days, I made another pot of soup. This time it was tortellini soup. And it was good, although I do think I liked my Italian wedding soup better. Either way, I did freeze a container of each soup, so I'll have it at another time during the winter! I think I like making soups, I need to find myself some more recipes. I also made this candy thing out of chow mein noodles, chocolate chips, butterscotch chips, and cashews. They are quite tasty!! And very easy to make. You melt the chips together, and then stir in the noodles and cashews until they get coated. Then you drop tablespoonfuls on a cookie sheet or wax paper, and let them cool. Voila! A tasty treat! I am also going to make some mini chocolate tart things, hopefully tomorrow. They just looked yummy, and fun to make! I hope!

My sister, Lisa, drives up tomorrow with her dog. She is coming from NC, and she usually makes the trip in one day. That's a looooong day, if you ask me. It's about 12 hours of driving for her. I hope she gets her safely! The last time she came up here, before Mandy had the baby, she somehow avoided getting into a very bad accident. So, I am praying she arrives to us safe and sound!

I guess I'm all caught up for now. The holiday is right around the corner. Which is hard to believe. It just arrived so quickly! I wish everyone out there in blog land a happy and safe Christmas, holiday, Hannukah, Kwanzaa, and whatever other holiday might be in there as well! :)

Friday, December 16, 2005

Wintry Weather

I awoke this morning to a lot more snow on the ground than there was last night. It's actually very pretty! The snow stuck in the tree branches are a beautiful sight to see, I love that look. It's still snowing, a few specks here and there, but there have been a few times when I've glanced out my window and felt like I was watching snowglobe snow falling. It's supposed to snow most of today, so I'm staying inside again until tonight, when I'll go down the street to my parents' house for dinner. It's my dad's birthday today! We are just having pizza and wings, and maybe a cake (I haven't heard about one yet lol). It should be nice!

My friends were supposed to go to NYC this morning. Because of the unknown with the snow and the ice we had last night, they cancelled their flights. I know all of them are bummed, but a couple of them were mad, and I felt stuck in the middle. I plead the fifth! They can complain to me if they want, but I'm not sharing info with anyone. I think it's safer that way. lol Besides, with a possible mass transit strike in NYC (there is a partial one now), it would have been hard getting around anyway! At least they didn't lose money on their plane ticket, and can go again another time!

Well I suppose I should do something, like get dressed. I'm so used to slacking, I need to break this habit! I have more earrings to work on today, so at least that will keep me busy for a while. I really feel like bundling up and playing with the snow, but that is a huge no no for me. Then I'd probably get sick for real!

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Chilling, Chillin', and Other Happenings

It is still cold up here in WNY, but not as bad as the past couple days. I still haven't gone outside, but I will be venturing out tomorrow. Hopefully. We are getting a lot of snow here, after an afternoon of rain/freezing rain/hail. I'm only going down the street to my parents' house, but still, that drive can be treacherous! But tomorrow is my dad's birthday, so we are having pizza and wings. Mmmmm, that can't keep me away!

Today was another day of resting and taking it easy. I am still playing that game of Am I Getting Sick, Or Is It Just My Sinues Driving Me Insane? It's really not a fun game, and I'm tired of playing it! I woke up this morning feeling tired, so after my shower, I fell asleep again for an hour. I made some earrings for a friend of mine, and watched tv. It really wasn't an eventful day, but I need those kind of days when I'm not sure how I'm feeling.

I talked with my friend, Tom, on the computer today, for quite a while. I hadn't talked to him in a few months. We were chatting about this and that, and while I still consider him a great friend, it it sometimes hard to talk to him. My feelings for him were so intensely strong for a long time, a LONG time, that those feelings are still there. They are under the surface, and won't ever return again, but nevertheless, they are there. And I'm not sure they will ever go away.

So anyway, as we were talking, he told me that for 9 months, he was with this woman who is married. I already knew this because his brother had told me, but he thought it would catch me offguard. I told him I wasn't surprised, since he hasn't been the only friend I've had who has been involved with a married person. Anyhow, we got to talking about being single, and meeting that right person (with me thinking in my head that he wouldn't be single if he had given me a chance...whatever lol), and I ended up telling him that I have gotten to the point where I don't even think my life is about meeting someone and being in love. And that I don't even care that I'm not with someone, since I'm happy with my life right now, and all that matters to me are my family and close friends.

But after talking with him, I've been thinking...am I really happy with no one in my life? Do I really not want to be with anyone at all? My feelings are so mixed about this, since I have a hard time finding anyone who wants to deal with my health issues. I think that's why I blow it off, because I think that no one will want to bother being with someone who gets tired a lot, wears oxygen, and can't work because of a stupid illness. It gets tiring to feel this way, and it feels quite lonely. So I don't know, half of me does hope I find someone who is willing to be with me, and half of me hopes I won't have to deal with someone else. It's aggravating feeling this way!

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Brrrrrr!!

It's cold out. Veeeeeery cold. I think when I got up this morning it was 8 degrees, now it's 21. Yuck! I shouldn't be surprised by this. I've lived in WNY all my life, so I should be used to it, right? I wish!!

I haven't gone out since Monday, like I said I wouldn't. I was a slacker yesterday, although I did get my dishes and my fish bowls clean. I also made the Italian wedding soup, and it is rather tasty! I have to put some in the freezer, though, since I can't eat the whole pot by myself. It gets boring after a while, eating the same thing for days! Today, I feel like I'm coming down with something. It's driving me nuts! I think the main reason is the heat that's been going on every 10 minutes, and wearing the oxygen. Both of these are very dry, and I feel dehydrated. It's making me quite tired. So I've been taking it easy. I am working on my friend's illusion necklace that she ordered from me when I had my jewelry party. It is going to be sooooo beautiful! I think I might start working on more illusion necklaces. They take along time to make, but they come out very elegant looking. :)

Well I've finished eating lunch, so I guess it's back to the old grind. I want to get the necklace done so I can take a nap. lol

Monday, December 12, 2005

Busy Busy Busy! And Exhausted!

I have been out of the house almost every day since last Wednesday or Thursday. I can't remember which, really! Christmas shopping for so many people is hard sometimes! I did pretty good being out on Saturday and then again yesterday, but today, I just wanted to stay home. However, I had to go to the post office to have some packages mailed, and to buy a lot of stamps for all my Christmas cards. And then I had to go to a couple other stores to get some more wrapping paper and cards. I told my mom when she dropped me off that I didn't want to go outside for a few days, because I'm so tired of being out! I also have some things to do around here, so I'll still be busy, but at least I won't have to bundle up and go anywhere.

My best friend and I were looking for a dinnerware set for our best friend who is getting a divorce. She has to move out, and will not have a lot of things to bring with her. So my friend and I went to Bon Ton to look around, and found a 45-piece dinner set that was originally $120. It was on sale, plus my friend had 25% discount and a free shipping card. Because the box was so heavy, we paid $8 of the shipping. So the grand total for this beautiful dinner set? $40! And so we both only spent $20! I love a bargain!!! I'm hoping our friend loves the set, too!!

Well I'm definitely off for a nap. I so need it! I think I'm going to make a soup tonight. I bought ingredients to make a tortellini soup, and an Italian wedding soup. I can't decide which one I want to make first!! lol

Saturday, December 10, 2005

U2!!!!

I got back home about 45 minutes ago from the U2 concert in Buffalo. It was awesome!! It was the first time I've ever seen them play, and I was so glad that I got the chance. Although we were sitting in the 300 level, way up in the last row, we could see the stage in front of us, and all the lights and everything fancy that went on during the show. The band played for almost 2 1/2 hours, and that included 3 encores! It was a great time!! :) :)

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Whew, I'm Finally Moved!!

Well it took me forever, but I finally got all my AOL entries moved over here! I just did a little at a time, and it took me like a week and a half, I think. Feels like more. lol So, I'm all settled in my new home! I'd like to do a little more decorating, as soon as I figure out how to do some things. But, I do have to admit, that I'm happy here. I like the atmosphere more, and most of those who wrote on AOL have moved over here, too. Making it still feel like a happy blog community! So, I'm hoping to stick around here for quite some time! :)

Now, if anyone can tell me how to get a little drop down menu like I've seen in some blogs for my older entries, I'd appreciate it! lol In the meantime, I might just investigate myself. :)

Monday, December 05, 2005

Lazy Weekend, Busy Monday

I felt like such a slug this weekend. I suppose that's alright, considering last weekend I was hardly sitting for more than 10 minutes. I watched a lot of movies, since I had free HBO and Showtime for the weekend. But it's no wonder I don't pay for these channels. The same thing comes on over and over, or I can never find anything I want to watch. lol It figures!

Today, I had wanted to go out shopping, but I decided I'd better stay home to get some actual work done. And I certainly kept pretty busy! I finally put the plastic up on my bedroom windows. I rolled some pennies to put in the bank. My poor little bunny was filled to the top with pennies, so I had to empty it! I've had this bunny bank since I was really little. It used to be soft and fuzzy, but it's worn down now. But at least I still use it! I also washed all my dishes. I just hate that chore. (Wait, I hate any chores. lol) Then I spent quite a bit of time on the phone with Medicare, trying to figure out what prescription plan I should choose so that I get all my meds, and I can still use the same pharmacies. The whole Medicare prescription plan has been quite confusing, so it was nice to talk to a person who understood my frustrations!

Tomorrow I am going to get bloodwork done, and then going shopping with my mom, sister and little niece. Hopefully it'll be nice! I know it'll be cold, but there's nothing that can be done about that. Except wear more layers, which I do anyway! I'm sure it'll be fun! :)

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Ca-Ching!

I had a great time last night at my friend's house! And, I sold quite a bit of jewelry! That's always a plus! There were nine of us there, and we laughed, gabbed and ate yummy snacks until quite late. I didn't get home until after midnight, and I went to bed after 1am. I just love gathering with my friends. I'm so glad we do a girls' night almost every month. It is definitely a great time!

I'm not sure what I'm doing today. I'm still in pjs, and I almost don't want to get out of them. It's rather chilly outside, although the sun is shining brightly! I'm grateful for that. The sun perks me up, no matter what the temps are. It is welcoming!

I suppose I should go! I know I have some chores to do around here, although they are not getting me motivated. lol Maybe today will just be a lazy day!! We shall see!

Friday, December 02, 2005

Five Years Ago Today...

I received this cute little guy (trust me, he was tiny when I got him!) as a Christmas gift from one of my best friends!! Mittens is like my kid, and I just love him to death! He has gotten me through some rough times, by just making me laugh at things he does, or making me smile by cuddling on my lap. I hope to have many more years with him!!
He loves to chill on top of the fridge!!

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Whoo, Goal Accomplished!!


Well, I accomplished my goal of having 50 necklace sets for tomorrow!! There may not be too many people there, but that's ok. At least I have a lot to show them! The set above is an example of what I make, but I have so many kinds, it's hard to judge by just that pic. Plus, the quality of the photo stinks. lol I keep telling my sister I'd like the pics she took, but I don't know why she doesn't send them to me!! This is why I need a digital camera!! Maybe, just MAYBE, if I make a lot tomorrow night, I can use some of the money for camera. Guess I'll have to wait and see!

It's the first of December. It's so hard to believe it's the last month of the year. The new year ahead of me is so full of unknowns, but I suppose that's true for anybody. I haven't decided on any resolutions for next year yet. Maybe by the end of the month, I'll have some! lol

I'm off to take a nap. The necklace I worked on today is an illusion necklace, and it took me a few hours to do. My back is hurting! But, at least I'm happy that I did it. :)

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Trying To Relax

I have been keeping myself busy, low-key style. If that makes any sense. I haven't been running around like a nut, like I had been over the weekend. I've been making jewelry, and getting ready for Friday night. I have 45 sets now, so only 5 more to go before reaching my goal! I'm looking forward to Friday, not only to hopefully sell lots of jewelry, but to also be with my friends.

I've been slowly posting my old journal entries from AOL over to this new one. I still have quite a bit to go, but it's been interesting to see what I was doing, and how I was feeling over the past couple of years. I guess that is one of the great things about journaling. When you go back to read old entries, you can either laugh at how silly something was at the moment, or cry because you realize how important someone was to you at that time. I'm so glad I've decided to keep up with a journal, even online. Writing is a release for me, no matter how serious or how silly the entry. It helps to free the thoughts caught in my mind!

I want to make some sort of soup today, but I don't have too many veggies to put in it. I have chicken, and rice and noodles. Maybe I'll just use that. Oh yes, and the broth. I want to try making Italian wedding soup, so I need to find a recipe. I don't think I'll have all the ingredients, but I can always get them the next time I get groceries. The wintery coldness this time of year makes me want to learn how to make a ton of soups!

Well, I guess it's back to making jewelry! I have a pretty dark blue set all ready to make. Then I might try a harder set, that will take me a few hours. Not looking forward to that, but they do turn out beautiful! And I'm not just saying that, I've been told that by a few people. lol Have a great day! :)

Monday, November 28, 2005

Holy Moly, My Weekend Is Over!

I can't believe what a busy weekend I had! I felt like it was non-stop since Thanksgiving. My sister, Lisa, got in on Friday afternoon. We went to visit Mandy and Hailey, since Lisa hadn't seen her since August! After that, we ate at my parents' house, and it was turkey day all over again! Then Lisa, Joan and I went out for martinis. I did NOT drink as much as the last time I went to Shadow. lol It was fun, though! By the time we got home, it was 11:30pm. I felt old, I usually go out at that time, not come home by then!!

Saturday was resting in the morning, and then a little shopping in the afternoon. We then went to my parents' again for dinner, and afterward, we went to see the new Harry Potter movie. It was very good! I still get hot and heavy over Alan Rickman as Prof. Snape. Yum, I say, yum!

Sunday was Hailey's baptism. It was very nice. Every time the priest came over to bless her, she was awed by him, and just smiled away. She is too freakin' cute, I tell ya! We went to Mandy's house afterward for lots of food, and we had a very nice time. When Lisa and I got back here, we put up my Christmas tree. And then we watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Cute movie, but not totally true to the books. Shocking.

Today we went out to breakfast at The Original Pancake House. I will not eat there again! The food was ok, but not for the prices they were charging. It was just ridiculous! I had a small orange juice, and the glass looked like a tall shot glass. And the damn thing was $2.10! Just crazy, I tell you! After, Lisa and my parents and I wandered the mall we used to frequent all the time when we were growing up. It's sad how much it went downhill, but nice to see it's trying to be revived. Hopefully more places will rent out the spaces in there, and it might be somewhat happening again soon!

Lisa left tonight, we dropped her off at the aiport around 5:30. It was sad to see her go, but she will be driving back up here on Dec. 23rd. With her puppy! That's not too far around the corner! :)

I am exhausted, and should have gone to bed hours ago. However, I am going now! I have more to share, but I really need some sleep. So, until tomorrow! :)

Thursday, November 24, 2005

A Happy Thanksgiving! :)

I had a very nice day today, with my family. I'm so glad I did everything I did yesterday, so I could relax this morning before going to my parents' house. I almost didn't want to go, because it was so snowy, and it was cold. But of course, I did! How could I miss all the food?? And boy, did we have a lot of food! We are all going back over tomorrow night for dinner again. At least it's nice that my mom doesn't have to cook, we can just reheat and eat! Yay!

It is now bitterly cold outside. It's only 17 degrees, and the winds are making it feel like -6. It's horrible! My sister arrives from North Carolina tomorrow afternoon, and I hope she's dressed warm when she gets here! The only reason she hates coming back to visit during the winter is because she freezes! Well, we all do get cold, but I think she's just gotten used to weather in the south. She really should prepare better when she comes back home. lol

I'm going out tomorrow morning for some deals, I hope. I am NOT one of those who will be out there at 5 or 6am! That is just craziness, at least for me. I'm also a tiny person, I can't imagine trying to fight people off for an item on sale. I do have my oxygen tank as a weapon, however, hmmmm. Only kidding! hehe The one thing I'm excited about is being able to finally get my new cell phone! It will have a digital camera, which I can't wait for. I'm looking forward to playing around with it when I get home tomorrow!

Well, I am off to bed a lot earlier than I usually go. I'm just really tired from the day, but I also want to make sure I actually wake up early enough tomorrow to leave by 9am. That is a time I can deal with! I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! :)

Feeling Accomplished!

Amazingly, I got almost everything done that I said I wanted to get done today. Yay! The only thing I really didn't get to was my jewelry, but I do feel happy that I did so much. I even vacuumed (oopsy, not supposed to do that!!). My mom yelled at me when I told her I did it, but I don't care. I don't remember the last time she vacuumed, and I couldn't take it anymore! I just took my time with it, as usual. And I was ok! :) My pie and strawberry banana bread made the house smell delicious! I just hope they taste as good. hehe

Tomorrow will be the start to a really busy weekend for me. My sister, Lisa, is flying into town on Friday afternoon, and will be here until Monday evening. Our little niece will be baptized on Sunday afternoon, the reason she is coming back home. But before then, we have plans of seeing Harry Potter, going Christmas shopping, going out, putting up my Christmas tree, and whatever else we decide to do. It sure will be crazy and hectic, and I hope I survive it all!

I think I figured out the spacing issues I was having in my blog earlier today. While trying to find an answer on Blogger's help page, I came across something that said to clear the cache on my computer. After doing so, I was able to start new paragraphs! I can't say if this is the real answer, but it worked for now, so I'm happy. :)

Well, I'm definitely off to bed now. I did all I had to do for the day, and without a nap! Shocking! :-O Have a good night, all! :)

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

A Busy Day Planned...At Home!

I have a lot planned to do today! However, none of it involves going outside, which is nice since it's not even 25 degrees out there!! IF I ever get off of the computer and out of my pjs, I plan on cleaning, making my pecan pie for tomorrow, making my strawberry banana bread for Sunday, and possibly make a necklace set or two in between. I'm not sure if I'll actually get it all done, but I'm sure going to try!! At least having the oven on will help keep the apartment warm! I cannot figure out why I can't make a second paragraph in the past couple days!!! I hit the return button to start a new paragraph, and it scrolls down to the bottom of the page. Is this happening to anyone else??? Help!! Ok, this is supposed to be another new paragraph, but it's just to say I'm off to accomplish my goals for the day! I hope!!

Monday, November 21, 2005

Survey Like None-Other!

Got this from Lori who got it from Sassy - Join in! ;-) The goal is to have this in every single AOL Journal. (Well I'm not AOL anymore, so it can be in whatever journal you want it to be!!) What do you have in common with others? Do you like the same things? Post this and put the title of your entry "Survey Like None-Other!" This is a great way to introduce yourself to new readers!

1. What sign are you? Virgo
2. What is your favorite color? Red
3. How many waffles could you eat in one sitting? Probably just 2
4. Can you touch your tongue to your nose? No way, I have a feeling I might be more popular if I could. lol
5. If you had to choose between cats and dogs, which would it be? Cats!
6. What is something you have learned recently? I learned that someone I used to work with passed away. I was so shocked, it was really sad to find out.
7. What is your favorite quote? Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia ~Charles Schulz
8. What is your favorite entry in your own journal? I'm not going back to my AOL journal, and I only have a few entries here, so I can't really answer this question.
9. What color is your bedroom? It's white with a green flower border up near the ceiling.
10. Where is your favorite place to visit? I do love going to my Grandma's house near Elmira, NY, especially when it's fall and the hills look so colorful with all the leaves turning.
11. What is one thing you want to accomplish this year? Well, this year is almost over with, so I don't have much time, but I would still love to meet Euan, the guy from Canada that I've been talking to for the past couple years.
12. Why do you write in a journal? I used to always have one here at home, and keeping one online is a little bit easier for me. I just love to write about anything that I feel effects me.
13. What is your favorite joke? I don't know, anything makes me laugh, I don't have a favorite!
14. Do you like the city or the country? I am definitely a city girl. Maybe not big city, but I couldn't stand living in the country if I had to.
15. What style is your house decorated? I don't know what style to really call it, but I'd like to say it's neat, with little things here and there.
16. Who is your favorite artist? I love the oceanic paintings by Christian Hassen, they are gorgeous!
17. Can you pat your tummy and rub your head at the same time? After testing this out, I found out that I could!
18. Are you a night owl? Yes, and I know exactly who I got that from: my mom and my grandma!!
19. What is something you love in your house? That would have to be my fat cat, Mittens! Awww, isn't he a cutie?? :-D


20. Do you believe in God? I definitely do believe in God, for withouth Him, I don't believe I'd be here.
21. What hobby could you never give up? Reading, I love to read almost anything!
22. What color makes you think of Hope? A sunny yellow, like when I see the sun shining as I wake up in the morning.
23. What color makes you think of Love? Red, of course.
24. What is your favorite flower? Tulips, oh how I love tulips! I'm also now in love with red sunflowers ever since I saw pictures and paintings in Judi's journal!!
25. If you had one wish for the world, what would it be? I wish for poverty to be eliminated.
26. What's the best surprise you have ever received? Like Lori, I also got a kitten, but it was for Christmas!
27. What can you cook like no-one else? Strawberry Banana Bread, my own creation over the summer!
28. What do you think about most? How the heck I'm going to pay for my bills.
29. Who is your favorite poet? I'm not much of a poetry person, so I don't really have one.
30. And last but not least, if you could wrap yourself up in one word...what would that word be? Happiness.

Ramblings And So On

Today has been pretty good so far. It's a rather dismal day out there. I only saw the sun for about a minute, and I don't think there's a chance for it to come back. I spent a bit of time online earlier, then almost an hour on the phone with one of my sisters. She had a good weekend, and all I could hear in the background was my niece. She was babbling and laughing! I made the realization that today she is 5 months old! How time does fly!

After chatting, I finally exercised. Only a half mile today, not bad. I didn't want to push it. I can get tired so easily, and I hate it! I want to be all rested up for this evening, for I am going to dinner with former co-workers at the Olive Garden. YUM!! It's my favorite restaurant, and I don't get to go there often since I have such limited funds. So I've been looking forward to this for quite some time. :)

I'm getting used to this new home. I keep figuring things out, and then I'll see someone else's blog with something different, and I try to figure out how they did it. I think my favorite part is the layout I picked. I love being able to pick bright colors to go with the black background. It looks so cool! At least I think so. lol My next challenge is figuring out how to add different fonts to things. We'll see, maybe I'll get it, maybe I won't!

Well, it's about that time to get dressed and see what jewelry I can make today. I'm getting close to my goal of at least 50 sets. Oh, the mailman just walked by!! Whooo hooo, let's see what crap I get today!! lol :)

Sleep, Finally!


I am exhausted! I had a pretty good afternoon. I got my prescriptions, went to a dollar store, and then went to Target. As I was walking around the store, I slowly started to feel utterly tired, almost ready to drop. I don't know why, I really wasn't doing all that much. I'm thinking maybe it was the wind I had to fight with while I was out. Who knows? I had planned on stopping at a couple other stores, but when I left Target, I just went home. I almost fell asleep immediately when I went to go lay down. I didn't get a whole lof of sleep since my mom was working on the apartment upstairs, and she kept coming down here for something. I've been wanting to go to bed since 8pm. lol However, it is now after midnight, and I can no longer stand the fact that I'm awake. So, off to bed I go! :)

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Sunny Sunday!

I'm doing a lot better today. I woke up, had breakfast, and went to church with my mom. And it's pretty nice outside! The sun is in full force, and it's near 50 degrees. I plan on going out in a bit again to run some errands. And to just enjoy the fresh air! Mainly because I hear the snow is coming. Again. Starting Tuesday. I'm not sure how much or anything, I just heard the rumor from a friend's wife. lol So, we might have a snowy Thanksgiving!

I bought a recipe book from church today, all desserts! The parishioners (myself included) submitted dessert recipes over the summer, and they compiled them all into a cookbook. I was browsing through it earlier, and many desserts sound so yummy! I am going to have to attempt making something in the very near future.

Off I go on, on my way to get my prescriptions, and maybe go to Target!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Feeling Better, For The Most Part

Well, I'm feeling better than I was the last time I posted today. I've been resting quite a bit. I took a rather long nap this afternoon, and I'm thinking that helped a little. I had a salad with tuna tonight for dinner, and didn't feel sick afterward, so I guess maybe it was just a short period of time that I had a stomach bug. Who knows. All I know is that I want to go outside tomorrow. I've been stuck in the house since Tuesday, mainly because of the freezing temps we had for a few days, and then because I wasn't feeling well. I'll probably go to church and then get the prescriptions I wanted to have filled today. That is the plan! I hope I will be able to make it. lol

I made a beautiful necklace set tonight, and it took me almost 2 hours to do. It is a different style than I've been making, so it took a lot more time. It is a purple and pink 3 layer illusion necklace, and it turned out great! I almost don't want to sell it, but I go through that with almost every set I make. lol I'm going to charge a little bit more for it, since it took so much longer to put together. But I think it will sell. I plan on making 2 more sets, just different colors. I wish I had a digital camera so I could put the picture online. It frustrates me that I don't have one! If I did, I'd be able to have a website showing my stuff. Maybe some day!

It's hard to believe that Thanksgiving is right around the corner. And before you know it, Christmas will be here. How in the world does time fly by so quickly?? I also find it amazing that more than half the decade will have passed by the time Jan. 1st comes. I still vividly remember getting ready for the new millenium. Things were so different back then. I had a job, a boyfriend, a friend who I thought was my best friend forever. The only thing I didn't have was my health. I had been getting so sick back then, that I was eventually forced to quit my job. I also eventually lost that best friend, maybe because I just couldn't do everything we used to do together. Who knows. I also lost the boyfriend, but that was his own fault. lol So I look at my life today, and I just can't believe the difference. While I do have my health, which I think is so important, I never thought I'd go from teaching to making jewelry. I have no regrets though. I miss teaching, but I am so happy to be here and healthier than before. I am thankful for my family and friends who have stood by me all this time, for they are my life. I love them so much, very dearly.

Well now that I had that short trip down memory lane, I think it's time for me to go read or something before bed. Here's hoping for a better tomorrow!

Feeling Blah

I'm not really feeling all that great today. My tummy has been upset since yesterday, and I'm not really sure why. Every time I eat, I feel like.....well, I think you get the idea. It's making me rather tired, too! I did manage to take a shower and make one necklace set so far today. And I had a nice conversation on the phone with my mom. However, right at this moment I feel like curling up into a ball and sleeping. Maybe that's what I'll do. I need to try eating some soup first, though.

Despite the crapiness I'm feeling, the weather outside is nice and sunny! The temps are a bit warmer than the past few days, but the really really nice weather is far behind now. It's definitely fall/winter time here in WNY. Gotta love it! Or not! lol

Friday, November 18, 2005

Spreading Awareness

November is Pulmonary Hypertension Awareness month. So, I'd like to take a moment to share with whoever is out there reading details about pulmonary hypertension (or PH for short).

PH is a rare lung condition, where the pulmonary artery leading from the lungs to the heart is constricted. It is like high blood pressure, only it is in the lungs. Only about 2 out of every million people have this disease. However, the symptoms of PH are similar to many other health problems out there, such as asthma and other heart ailments. It is for this reason that it may take quite a bit of time, years even, to be correctly diagnosed with PH. So in all actuality, there could be many more people with PH who don't know it.

Symptoms of PH include extreme shortness of breath with minimal exertion, fatigue, chest pain, dizziness, and even fainting. These symptoms can come on gradually, or start happening all of a sudden.

PH doesn't discriminate. Anyone can get PH, men and women of all ages and races. It does seem to especially effect women of child-bearing age.

Although there is no cure (yet!), treatments for PH are improving all the time. Just 15 years ago, there was almost nothing to treat the symptoms. There are intravenous drugs, oral meds, and also inhalation meds. Just this past summer, Viagra was approved under a different name! And there are more drugs in trials that will hopefully be approved for treatment in the near future. Besides drugs, oxygen therapy is often used for many people. Also, lung transplants may be another option, but it is often a last resort option, since it's a very risky procedure.

Why am I writing about all this? It is because I have lived with PH and a congenital heart condition all my life. I was born with PH, and the doctors back then didn't have much hope for me. There was nothing they could do. I grew up feeling the symptoms of PH daily. Yet, somehow, I'm still here 30 years later! I am finally on treatment after all this time, and it has helped a lot. I am on a medicine that is only a few years old, and oxygen, which has made me feel so much better. I am hoping for the best with this disease! Keeping a positive attitude is something else I think that's kept me going.

And so, this is my entry about awareness. I hope I've educated at least one person today. If you'd like to learn more about PH, please go to the Pulmonary Hypertension Association website. It has a lot of information! :)

I'm Becoming Lazy!!

I think I'm becoming a slacker. At least that's what I've felt like this past week! I stretch my mornings out as long as possible before I finally get dressed and exercise. I'm still in my pjs, and it's almost noon. I'm getting there. No really, I am.

After reading Judi's journal this morning, I saw that she added other links to her blog. It took me several minutes to figure out how she did that, but behold, I did it too! I'm starting to like this place afterall. There are still a few things I wish it could do, like alert me when new posts are up. But, what can ya do? If every blog were like the one I came from, I'd be rather disappointed!

Ok, I guess it's time I got my butt moving. I must exercise, so I can start more jewelry. I have a goal today of making at least 3 sets. Wish me lots of luck. lol

Thursday, November 17, 2005

First Snow....Yippee?

I wasn't ready for it, but tonight we got our first snow here. Not really much to talk about. It's more of a dusting on the grass, almost like the snow is reminding us of what it is. South of me, though, got a ton of it yesterday and today. THAT is something I'm thankful for not getting. I'm not ready to see that much snow!

I exercised this morning, and walked a mile! Yay!! I just felt like I could walk that much, so I did. And I felt good about it. I hope I keep picking up the pace. I miss not walking the 2 miles I was able to get up to the summer before last. But I'm getting there, slowly! :)

Other than exercising, I didn't really have a productive day. I made 2 necklace sets tonight, however. They are a pretty lightish green color. I wasn't sure if I wanted to make another set, so I just came online. lol Can't win them all, I guess!

That's about it for now. I'll probably play around online until I go to bed. Tomorrow's another day to tackle jewelry! It's going to be cold again, I don't think I'll be going out. Of course, it's Friday. I just might end up going out for something! :)

Cold But Sunny....Sort Of!


Today I woke up to the wonderful sun!! It made me happy! Until I saw how cold it was outside. Brrrr!! I guess I can't really complain, though. We had such good weather for so long, it was bound to get cold sooner or later! I'm still in my pjs, and it's now noon. I've been having slacking days for like a week now. Maybe it's just the weather change! I do plan on exercising today, and trying to make more jewelry. That's if I ever get motivated! Perhaps I shall try that now! :)

Just A Good Night


It's been a long day, although I don't feel too accomplished. I made 2 necklace sets, and they turned out nice. But I'm sure I could have made more! I've been pretty tired lately, though, so I just rested most of the day. The coldness that has seeped in today also makes me sad to finally realize that summer is definitely gone. How I can't wait for it to return already. lol

My plans for tomorrow are much of the same for today. I don't think I'll go out, but that could always change. We'll see. But for now, I am ending my day! :)

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Aha, I Did It!

Ok, for someone who just a minute ago said she didn't know how to do something, she went and figured it out! Go me!! lol Ok, now I'm off to do jewelry! Whooo hooo! :)

Eww, This Day Is Icky!

Today started out to be abnormally gorgeous for this time of year. Of course, if you were up at 6am, you would have felt the near 70 degrees it was outside. I have no reason for getting up that early, so I was not out there. By the time I did get up, though, the temp had dropped many degrees, and it's now in the low 40s. Ewww! I can't see out my windows because they got all fogged up. But that's ok, it's so dreary out anyway! It's been windy, rainy, cold, and just yucky. Although the sun popped out for like a minute, and then disappeared. That was one moment of happiness. lol

I'm trying to get used to my new home here. I do admit it was a little easier to do things over at AOHell. Like adding pictures. I finally got a hold of how to do that, and now I have no clue how to do that here! Can anyone help me??

I also miss reading the journals of the people I got to know over at AOHell. Quite a few of them came over here, and that's great! But there are a few who might not even journal again. And it stinks!! AOL surely knows how to screw up a good thing.

Well, I'm off to make some jewelry! I have to make a whole bunch before Dec. 2nd. That is when my friend is letting me have a jewelry party at her house. I only have 27 sets right now, so I'm hoping to make quite a few more! I went bead shopping the other day, so I'm sure I can make a lot! Off I go! :)

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Still Annoyed!


I'm still pretty peeved at the "other" place. They sure know how to mess things up. This isn't the only thing they've done to make me mad, and I'm sure that goes for a lot of people. They had an awesome tutoring program going, which I was a part of for several years. Last year, they canned it. Why? Because they are stupid!! I loved volunteering for that program because I was actually helping students. So AOL decided that everyone who was a part of the program could have another year free, and then we'd have to start paying for their service again. Well guess what?? NOT GONNA HAPPEN!! lol I'm sick of the crap that AOL puts their customers through. I will be leaving them some time after the new year!

Hopefully My New Home!

Well everyone, here's my new home, at least for now. I hope the mass exodus continues from AOL, I can't believe the crap they thing we'll tolerate!! Anyhow, I'm going to explore this place to see what else I can do. I hope I like it here! Seeing as the "other" place hasn't given me (or us) much of a choice, it'll do for now!

Bye Bye AOL, Thanks For Nothing!!!

Well, AOL has done it! They have finally decided to invade our space by putting stupid ads in our journals. Did they ask us?? NOOO!! Do I want them?? NOOO!! Does anyone want them?? NOOOOO!!! Sooooo, for that reason, I'm not using this journal anymore!! I'm moving!! Here is my new address, please come and visit!!

http://daily-ponderings.blogspot.com/2005/11/hopefully-my-new-home.html

Bye AOL Journals, thanks for nothing!!!

Monday, November 07, 2005

Ahh, The Sounds of Midnight

Well, the huge tree branch that fell near my house earlier today from the winds is finally cleaned up. After many many hours, the Parks Dept. came to put the branch through the shredder.

Just now.

At 12am.

It's a good thing I'm a late night person. I feel bad for the neighbors who were probably sleeping, and got to wake up to the sounds of a chainsaw and a huge tree shredder! lol

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Windy Sunday!

Today has been an extremely windy day. The temps outside were in the 60s when the day started, but now it's like low 50s. I went to church, but decided to just stay home for the rest of the day. Glad I did. There is a humungous tree branch that fell a couple doors down from me, and it just missed this guy's front bumper. The wires it knocked down are all over his car, though. I'm sure there have been many instances like this all over the area, but the news hasn't been on yet, so I won't know until later. Oh well, hopefully the winds won't be so bad tomorrow! I need groceries!!

Friday night at happy hour was a lot of fun! We were happy, and it was for a lot of hours! I had 5 different martinis, quite a lot for such a tiny person. lol I don't drink like that often. In fact, the last time I drank was on my birthday in September, and even then I only had 2. Anyhow, I got to see my 2 bestest friends, and we just had a good time reminiscing. I'm hoping that one day soon, we will get to do this again. Maybe with not so many drinks next time, though. lol

My upcoming week doesn't look to be too thrilling. I have to grocery shop, I need to also go to Walmart for all my personal needs. I get to see the dentist on Thursday, yippee. And Thursday night, I'm going for coffee with a bunch of my friends. I'm sure something else might pop up along the way, but that's it for right now!
Hope everyone had a great weekend! :)

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Five cosmopolitans...amateur! Comment from luvmort - 11/9/05 5:01 PM

Friday, November 04, 2005

Mmmm, martinis!!

I'm going out for happy hour tonight! I should be leaving in a little while. I'm sooooo excited. I haven't gone out since my birthday, and it wasn't really a big deal (my birthday party was better hehe). I'm going out with one of my best friends, and we haven't gone out for happy hour since I don't know when!! We're going to a place called Shadow, and they specialize in martinis. I want something fruity!! Maybe several of them! It's ok, I'm not driving!! Whooo hoooo!!

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I'm jealous too! Hope you had fun!! Comment from fitzzer - 11/5/05 1:59 PM

Colour me jealous! Comment from luvmort - 11/4/05 7:58 PM

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Ahhhh, Spring!

Although it says Nov. 3rd on the calendar, and it is Fall, the weather outside right now screams Spring!! It's such a beautiful day today, and it's supposed to be tomorrow, too. In the 60s! I have even opened up a couple windows to let the fresh air in. I'm sure I'm confusing the cat, who loves to sit in the windows during the summer, and probably thinks we're back to that time of year again. I plain to enjoy it! I'd rake if I were allowed to rake. But, at least I can sit on my porch and enjoy it! Tomorrow night, I'm going out for happy hour with my 2 best friends. Nothing like drinks on a warm, spring/fall day!

I just finished exercising. I know exactly how some people miss exercising when they haven't done it in quite a while (I feel your pain, Mort!). I didn't exercise at all this summer, and I actually gained weight. Now, some people are picking on me for that because I'm already a tiny person. But trust me, I'm not meant to weigh alot, and if I did, my poor heart and lungs would have given out on me a long time ago. So anyhow, after not working out because of the humid weather, and then not working out because my sis took her treadmill with her when she moved, I finally got my friend's treadmill! And since then, I've been trying to walk every day, and then do some light exercises to tone. I've gotten back into a routine, and I'm sooooo happy about it. I think the thing that makes the major difference is the fact that my treadmill is now in my computer room, and not down in the basement. I won't go down there in the winter when it's cold. So now that it's up here, I'll be walking pretty much all winter!! Yeah, baby!!

Well, I think I'll eat lunch on the porch! The sun just came out from hiding! Just cross your fingers that I don't blow away, because while it's very nice today, the winds are outrageous. And I don't weigh that much even with the weight I put on this summer. lol Enjoy the day!!

*Side Note: I'm getting aggravated at missing alerts for comments, journal entries, and now I can't even post a picture from Hometown. What the heck, people?? I hope this gets fixed soon!!*

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I'm jealous about the weather too :) gosh, I miss days like that back home. Although I can't complain right now, it has been beautiful here. But I'm so missing the fall leaves. WTG on doing your exercises, I need to follow suit and do mine. I'm so bad at sticking with it. Comment from fitzzer - 11/5/05 2:01 PM

It is so beautiful here in Atlantic City, I can't even stand it! Comment from luvmort - 11/3/05 1:34 PM

Monday, October 31, 2005

Halloween Back In The Day!

I had this picture on my computer for something I did a few years ago. I am assuming this was taken when I was maybe 8 or 9. I'm in the middle with my sisters surrounding me. Aren't we cute??

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Way too cute - and great costumes! Comment from fitzzer - 11/5/05 2:01 PM

awwww! Such cuties. :) Thanks for sharing, my friend. Comment from anglswinks - 10/31/05 12:40 PM

Happy Halloween!

Halloween has always been one of my favorite holidays! When I was little, I just wanted all the candy and the party at school. When I got a little older, the candy was still nice to have, but then I wanted to have an awesome costume! That worked out for the most part. Sadly, though, in order to go trick-or-treating, I had to wear long underwear or a coat over my costume because it usually was so cold to go without. What a bummer, no one could see what I was! lol Nowadays, I love to see the kids coming around with their costumes, especially the little ones! They are soooo cute!!

Speaking of little ones, my niece is going to be a yellow flower! I can't wait to see her! Mandy is going to take her around in a little while. And today, the weather is pretty nice for once. That probably means I'll get a lot of trick-or-treaters, and I'll run out of candy quick! lol Enjoy the day, all!

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

The Mysterious Woman

It's been several months since I had to get a phone number for my house so I could use the internet. Ever since I've had the number I was given, I've gotten a ton of calls for the woman who must have had it before me. All I'd like to know is where in the world is Darlene Destino????????

You would think someone would give you their new number when they get it. Darlene either forgot to do so, or she has vanished from the planet. I get calls from telemarketers, and I have to tell them that she no longer uses the number. At least they don't try to sell me anything. Then I'd have to tell them that the number is on the Do Not Call Registry. At least I was smart to do that!

I get reminder calls from the Catholic Charities WIC program. After the fourth call from them the other night, I finally called today to let them know that I got Darlene's number. The woman was very apologetic about it, but it's not her fault! It's Darlene's! Now tell me something....if you are getting money to provide the basics for your young child, wouldn't you give the place providing you that money your new number so you could be reminded about appointments?? This is what makes me wonder about this woman. Did she take off with her child or something?? Hmmm.

Another thing that seems strange is that there have been people calling for her who sound like they are her friends, or at least know her well. And they are surprised she's not the one answering the phone. Helloooooo?? Wouldn't you tell people you know that you have a new number?? I just don't get it!
So, I say it again, where in the world is Darlene Destino?? Did she just change her number and forget to tell people? Did she suddenly disappear in the middle of the night so no one would know where she went? Is she in trouble with the law? Who knows the life of this woman?? I am curious, however, because I have gotten some pretty interesting phone calls. One of those times when I get a call for her, I'm going to ask that person a little about her! It's driving me nuts!! LOL

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We still get calls from whoever had our number 4 years ago!! What's up with these people? LOL Comment from fitzzer - 11/5/05 2:02 PM

I love you for this. It's a mystery and you are compelled to solve it. I am the same way. Next thing we'll know, you'll write a book "Finding Darlene: One Woman's Quest To Unsolve The Mystery Of The Forgotten Phone Number". Comment from luvmort - 10/28/05 1:00 PM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Clean Stuff And Some Disappointment On The Menu Today

So far today, I've gotten a lot accomplished. Mind you, my arms are still sore, but I'm trying to just shrug it off. And I guess it's working! I've washed the dishes. I've cleaned the entire bathroom. I've also done a big load of laundry AND hung all the clothes up to dry. I can't tell you the last time I hung up my undies because I didn't do it for years since my sister and her hubby were living upstairs. lol But that's all done! I even walked for 10 minutes. Perhaps that is why I had such an energy boost today. I was planning on just going back under the covers this morning, since it's so yucky, gloomy and rainy for the 4th day in a row. However, I've got a lot done! I think that's it for a while. I don't want to overdo it!

I got an email from someone I love dearly this morning. And it has disappointed me so much. I can't go into details here, but I have to say that I never thought she'd risk losing something so important to her by making the decisions she's making. It's quite obvious that the advice she so desparately wanted from me a while back went in one ear and out the other. I can only pray that her eyes will open suddenly, and she will realize she's making a big mistake.

Well, I guess I'm off to find something else to do. I think it might be some jewelry! Or maybe I'll go read Jaws. Yes, I decided to try reading the novel that caused such a sensation when it came out. Jaws is one of my favorite movies, and I was in my mom's womb when I "saw" it. It scared the crap out of her, but I just love watching it! lol Anyway, I'm off to do something! :)

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I remember everyone reading JAWS on the beach when it came out. Idiots. Comment from luvmort - 10/27/05 10:52 AM

Monday, October 24, 2005

Still In Pain, But Not As Much

My arms still hurt, but after 2 Tylenol arthritis, it is starting to subside. I'm hoping they will be much better tomorrow!

I told my doctor about my support group meeting today, and she told me she is so very proud of me. She said the support group gives me new purpose. She's so right. For the longest time, I've felt like, why am I here? I can't work, what am I supposed to be doing with my life? The support group is a new beginning for me, and it is so needed. The group is needed to bring people together. I need the group to know that I'm not so alone with PH, but to also give me the feeling that I'm accomplishing something. And so far, it's working. :)

I think I need to go to bed. It's so early, though, I'll end up waking at like 7am. I'm trying to hold off until at least midnight. I think the shots have made me sleepy! I sure hope they hold back the flu and pneumonia for the pain they've caused me today. lol Oh well, g'night!

I. Am. In. PAIN!!

I hurt. This entry will not be long because my upper forearms are killing me. I went to my doctor today for a checkup. Lo and behold, I needed both a flu shot AND a pneumonia vaccine. Lucky me!!
Her nurse put one shot in each arm. I can barely move my right arm without complaining. So, this entry must end at this moment.

Bring on the pain meds!!!

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Whew, Busy Weekend!

I had a very busy weekend, and although it was a lot of fun, I'm paying for it today. Friday was girls' night, and it was the best time! I had so much fun, and we laughed so hard that it bothered me the next day. Imagine that, even laughing can cause problems for me! But that sure doesn't mean I'm not going to laugh!
Last night was my friend's wedding. And it was fun, too! The food was good, the music sucked (the DJ was awful, I must make a mental note never to hire him for anything!), but we did dance! However, that threw me for a loop, too. I was quite tired by the end of the night. And today, I woke up very exhausted. I even have a little chest pain, which I know is because I've overdone it. However, I see my doctor tomorrow, and if I still have it, I will tell her about it.

I'd like to thank those who left such kind words in my last entry. My essay for the contest was a hard one to write, but the comments left make me realize that I do have many things that I CAN do. Thank you especially to my dearest sistore for making me feel so loved, and realizing that I have so much more to be thankful for. I love you so much. :)

Friday, October 21, 2005

The One Thing I Would Most Like You To Know About Me...

Our dearest Judi has asked us to write about what we would like someone to know about us. This is for the October Artsy Essay contest. I kept going back and forth on what I'd like people to know about me, and I finally have decided.

I was born with congenital heart disease (I have 2 holes in my heart), and a rare lung condition called pulmonary hypertension. Since doctors had no good answers for my parents on how to treat my condition when I was a baby, they were told that I might survive a year, or I might survive 50. They had no idea, but told my parents to prepare for the worst.

After reaching my 30th birthday last month, it is quite apparent to me that somehow I'm beating the odds. I grew up with a lot of limitations, and I still have many that I face as an adult. And while so many people have told me how strong I am, how unbelievable I am to brave everything I go to, my biggest secret is that I long terribly to have a normal life.

I wish so much that I was a normal person, in the physical sense. I know not everyone is "normal," but I wish I knew what it was like to do so many things that I just cannot do. I wish I could swim. I never learned because it would tire me out quickly, and I also had so many ear infections when I was younger. I wish I could swim in the ocean with dolphins and tropical fish. It is a wonder I love the ocean so much. I long to be there, to know what it feels like to hold my breath, take a dive, and see what is in the waters below.

I wish I could run. I long to just take off one day, running down the street, to no place in particular. I wish I could know what it feels like to do that, and not want to collapse afterward, so tired, my heart pumping so hard I feel like it's going to bust out of my chest. That is how I have felt most of my life, that any little thing I do, or big thing I attempt, leaves me and my heart and lungs in such distress that I almost feel like the end is near. It's a horrible feeling. Running is almost like a death sentence to me. Perhaps it is why I wish I could do it so much. To me, running is almost like a freedom. A freedom I will never know.

I wish I could work again. It's been over 5 years since I had to quite my preschool teaching job, and while I am better after doing that, I long to teach again. I miss the environment, I miss the children. I miss being looked up to by little ones, I wish I could see their faces when they were learning something new. The physical demands on me every day wore me down, though, and I know I could never go back into that environment again.

Perhaps the biggest wish I have felt and longed for lately is having a baby. It is not possible for me to physically go through. And yet, even if one day I adopted, just holding the baby or carrying all the things needed when going out is impossible. Wanting a child is the biggest heartache I have. When my sister and my best friend were both pregnant this past year, it made me realize even more how much I cannot have a baby. I cried almost every night, wishing I could hold and love a child the way a mother can. The fear of never being a mom is something that tears my heart out.

Being normal in the physical sense is something I don't ever really discuss with anyone. I almost feel like it's a silly dream, perhaps something most people don't want to hear about. But it's very real to me, and I keep it to myself. I don't want people to hear the pain I feel when I know I can't do the things I really wish I could do. It is not easy living with a disease that limits your everyday life. It breaks your heart when you cannot do what others around you can.

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One of my favorite prayers: "God grant me the grace of a normal day."http://journals.aol.com/oceanmrc/MidlifeMatters/ Comment from oceanmrc - 11/5/05 1:18 PM

What a moving entry this is. Physically you may not have the "normalcy" you desperately wish to have. But emotionally, you are far above normal. Keep on dreaming and hoping...there are always new developments in the medical field. And I will hope the researchers and scientists will find the perfect treatment to enable you to do all you wish to do!http://journals.aol.com/bedazzzled1/Bedazzled/Comment from bedazzzled1 - 11/1/05 3:56 PM

Oh, my sister. I've known that you have wanted to do all these things for awhile now. But just because you are unable to do them, just remember that God has blessed you in many other ways to make your life as fulfilling as it can be. Your other gifts are a blessing to everyone in your life and even though you feel left out on the things you are unable to do, remember that we all love you for who you are and can not imagine you not being present in our lives. I love you so much. :* Comment from balonie24 - 10/23/05 7:24 PM

I think we all can relate to this desire to be normal, for in being "normal" we find acceptance and love. It is scary to be "out there," to be different. But different has its advantages, too. And sometimes, when you dare to be "different," you find people who are "different" in the same ways as you. Then the differentness becomes...normal! My best wishes to you on your journey. http://journals.aol.com/theresarrt7/TheresaWilliams-author/ Comment from theresarrt7 - 10/22/05 6:30 PM

Oh Dear lady......... I wish that you could have these simple things too. I am honored that you wrote these words down and shared them, this is a very important secret to share.warm hugs to you,judi Comment from judithheartsong - 10/22/05 2:37 PM

it is crushing when such a deep desire is forever to be left outside our grasp. I pray you may find peace. I know things like this lurk in the darkness of our souls and only creep out when we allow them to. Thank you for sharing your heart so beautifully http://journals.aol.com/pixiedustnme/Inmyopinion/entries/1304 Comment from pixiedustnme - 10/21/05 9:31 PM

Oh, my heart broke for you with the comment about having a baby. I went through years of infertility. Don't give up on that dream. There are women who are completely paralyzed who have children!http://journals.aol.com/hestiahomeschool/HomeschoolingJournal/ Comment from hestiahomeschool - 10/21/05 9:17 PM

I understand. I really, really do. Christinahttp://journals.aol.com/ckays1967/myjourneywithMS/Comment from ckays1967 - 10/21/05 7:23 PM

Sunday, October 16, 2005

My Support Group Meeting Was...

AWESOME!!!

I had to admit I was so nervous yesterday morning trying to get ready to go to the hospital for my meeting. I was worried about getting there, I was worried about where to park, how to find the room, what the heck to say, etc, etc. But everything went smoothly! I didn't get lost going there (thanks to Mapquest, surprising, huh, Mort?? hehe). The lot where I parked was right across the doors from where the auditorium was located. What luck that was, since we had quit a bit of things to carry! And by the time the meeting started, I just told me story, and things flowed from there! Everyone told their story, and asked so many questions, that I didn't even have to direct the conversation! The 2 hours were gone so fast, I bet we could have been there for a longer time. I can't wait until I start planning for the next meeting, which might be late January or in February. I'm going to look for a guest speaker, as soon as I figure out a topic!

By the way, there were 5 PH patients who attended, 1 family member, and a representative from Accredo. Oh yes, and of course my mom and I. Sadly, the girl and her father that I talked about in my last entry didn't make it. I'm not sure why, either. Maybe she really didn't want to come, or maybe she wasn't feeling well to make the drive. I'm hoping that maybe she can come the next time!

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That's great - I'm glad to hear it all went well. Comment from fitzzer - 10/19/05 11:09 AM

Good to hear. Comment from luvmort - 10/18/05 7:11 PM

Friday, October 14, 2005

Overwhelmed

I received a call just about 20 minutes ago from a father who is bringing his daughter to the support group meeting tomorrow. He was trying to get the address of the hospital so he could look it up on Mapquest. He told me that this support group has come at the right time for his daughter, because she feels like giving up. She is 23. Her father told me he is so grateful that I'm having this, and that he looks forward to tomorrow. I immediately had tears in my eyes. I believe all of us PHers have felt that same way at some point, like giving up. I'd be lying if I said I haven't had that thought now and then. I am so glad I'm doing this. I feel so overwhelmed already with care for the people I'm about to meet tomorrow. I am glad God pointed me in the right direction when I was making a decision about whether to start this or not. This will be a good thing, a very good thing.

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You are doing such a wonderful thing in providing a support group and letting others now about this as well. Comment from fitzzer - 10/19/05 11:09 AM

Great that she is going to get help. Sad that she is using Mapquest. I have gotten so lost with that infernal thing. Comment from luvmort - 10/14/05 7:15 PM

What Support!

Wednesday was the last day to RSVP for my support group meeting on Saturday. I got 2 calls today, which was fine! So right now I have a total of 10 people listed as coming. This would include 7 PH patients, and 3 family members. This is not including my mom and I. A representative from Accredo is also coming. I have yet to hear from my PH specialist. I've emailed him twice, but no response. That's ok, though. I honestly never expected him to even suggest coming, and it's understandable if he doesn't want to drive the 3 hours to get here! So maybe next time!

I'm so looking forward to this meeting. A part of me is very nervous. I'm not a person who likes to get up in front of a crowd and just talk away. So this is a different venue for me, but I think it will be good. I wanted to meet other people going through what I've experienced. And this is what is happening! It's exciting and nerve-wracking, all rolled into one. I'll be surprised if I even eat breakfast Saturday morning. Or lunch for that matter. I'm sure I'll have butterflies in my stomach!

Not too much has been going on, other than getting things ready for the support group. I went for coffee last night with my friends, and we had a great time. We're having a girls night next Friday, and I'm looking forward to that, too! I also have a wedding to go to next Saturday. I really need to get a gift for them, since I don't have cash to write them a check. Gotta love the plastic. lol I gave all my jewelry to my friend, Michelle, so she could try selling some at her place of work. She sold one set already, and that was to her niece! I hope she can sell alot for me, I'll be so thankful!

I picked up my treadmill Sunday at my friend's house. My dad drove his truck there, and my friend's hubby helped him put it in the flatbed. It is still there. There's no way my dad can move that thing by himself, and I'd shoot him if he tried! He's waiting until someone from work is available to help him move it into my computer room. I thought it was going to happen today, but then my dad called to say the one guy couldn't make it. Oh well, ittook me a year to pick up the treadmill, I can wait a few more days. lol

Off to bed I go! I have lots to do tomorrow for the meeting! G'night, all. :)

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I'm probably a little late, but I often find really great gifts & deals on Crate & Barrel's outlet store on the web. Comment from fitzzer - 10/19/05 11:11 AM

Friday, October 07, 2005

A Little Trip To Cleveland And Some Support Group Joys!

I went to Cleveland Tuesday/Wednesday for a checkup with my PH specialist at the Cleveland Clinic. I mentioned before that I had been worried about going, and that I usually get that way before I go (see THIS if you want to catch up). I'm always worried about going to the doctors! Anyhow, I freaked out for nothing. Yet again! I actually had a pretty good walk, despite feeling like crap that morning. And it wasn't because of my cold. That has pretty much disappeared. But for some reason, I felt a little carsick on the way to the Clinic that morning. And then, the elevator to the 9th floor where the Pulmonolgy department is made me want to hurl. It always does. It's THE worst elevator I've ever been on!! Anyway, back to the walk. I didn't walk as far as the last time (1200 ft v. 1300 ft from May), but I felt a lot better than before. And my oxygen levels were better, too! Instead of dropping to 49% like last time, they dropped to 59%! That's an improvement! Now, if I were a NORMAL person, those numbers would be absolutely horrible. You might as well be comatose or almost dead with oxygen levels that low. However, I am NOT normal! At least when it comes to health, I'm not normal. lol So to make a long story short, my tests went well, and there are no changes to my therapy! Yay!!

Now, as for my support group meeting. Flyers went out last week, and I got my first RSVP on Monday! One person is coming!! And she is bringing her daughter! I was thrilled, I tell ya!! Well, my next big surprise about my support group meeting was the fact that my own PH doctor told me Wednesday that he'd like to come! I couldn't believe it! He'd drive 3 hours for a 2 hour meeting? That's what we asked him (my parents and I), and he said sure! He said his wife would be out of town, so he'd be able to make a trip. I'm holding my breath on it (not literally, that would be bad!), just in case he can't make it. I really hope he can, so we'll see! That would be awesome, though!

When I got home from Cleveland, I had a message from another woman RSVPing for the meeting. And today, I had a guy who left a message saying he might attend. Plus, tonight, I got an email from a woman who said she's coming! I am beyond elated that there are 5 people showing up so far! I am so looking forward to this meeting next Saturday. I think this was one of the best decisions I've made, to start this group. I had only hoped to meet one person with PH, and now it looks like I'll at least be meeting five! I only hope that more will show, whether they RSVP, or just show up. And maybe more will be willing to come in the future!
I have a low-key weekend planned. My big excitement might just be getting my friend's treadmill on Sunday. She offered it to me like a year ago. At first I had no room for it because my sister's was in the basement. But then after they moved, I just hadn't had the time to get it. And I kept forgetting. But now, I can get it, and I'm excited about it! I haven't exercised all summer. And that is horrible, considering last summer I exercised so much for the first time in my life! I had muscles everywhere! I was impressed with myself! Now I'm ashamed, and I'm ready to get back into shape, no matter how long it takes me!

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I'm so happy your tests came back ok! WTG on your RSVP's and meetings. That's great too. In no time I'm sure you'll have lots of people joining you. WTG! ~ Lori Comment from fitzzer - 10/8/05 11:04 AM

Monday, October 03, 2005

Sometimes I Just Don't Understand

I just had an interesting conversation with Pat, the brother of Tom, who I surely thought I was in love with for years. And I told Tom how I felt last summer, and he basically shut me down. I've gotten over that, for the most part. I can't lie and say there aren't days when I don't miss him, because I do. It's just not as hard as it was before.

Anyhow, while chatting with Pat, he brings up his brother, and he's saying some not-so-nice things about him. He starts telling me Tom's dating some chick who is a witch (substitute a certain letter), and another name which I shall not mention. Well, several names he called her, but they not publishable, so you get the drift. I wasn't too surprised by this, as he's said this about a couple other girls Tom's been with. However, I was very taken aback when Pat told me that this chick treats Tom like crap and IS STILL MARRIED!!! I can't believe Tom would stoop so low as to go out with a married woman. It was just shocking to me to hear this. But then, I told Pat that I had told Tom how I felt about him last summer, and that Tom just pretty much blew off what could have been a good thing. Well, I'm just going to relish Pat's comment: Tom's not good enough for me. Ain't that the truth! It's apparent that I'm not Tom's type.

I'm not married, for one thing.

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Men make no sense. Sometimes I think for some reason they just don't know how to appreciate a good thing. I know it hurts, but sometimes things happen for a reason. I'm thinking it's just that there's another guy out there that's just perfect for you and maybe you just haven't met him yet! ((hugs)) ~ L Comment from fitzzer - 10/4/05 8:39 AM