Tuesday, May 30, 2006

If Only Winter Was This Warm

It's hot. Now I've never usually been the one to complain about heat. I live for it, since I'm always so gosh darn cold, even when wearing layers to keep warm! But yesterday was outright unbearable, and I think it was mostly because I was celebrating Memorial Day at a house that didn't have the A/C on, or any sort of fan going. Being outside actually felt better than being inside. Plus, there was a pool set up for the kids, so I walked around in it a couple times. It felt rather refreshing, and made me contemplate getting one for myself. lol

Today is just as hot, but for some reason, I'm doing much better. Maybe it's because there is more circulation of air in here, and I have a couple fans blowing. It's 84 in the house, but I'm comfy. Now does that make sense?? For most people, no. But for me, yes! lol

I'm going out for dinner tonight with a lady I used to work with at Niagara University. I call her Mom #2. She calls me Daughter #2. Even after all these years since I've graduated from NU, I keep in touch with her as much as I can. She is such a dear person, and I'm looking forward to seeing her tonight!

Well I am off to go under a fan and read. Hope you're staying cool in your neck of the woods. :)

Thursday, May 25, 2006

A Sweet Baby, An Idol, And I'm Totally Lost!

I had a great day today! I went over to Mandy's house for the afternoon, and my heart sang as soon as I walked in the door and saw my beautiful niece! Of course, I loved seeing Mandy, too! :) We spent the time hanging out in the sun, playing inside, and watching a Baby Einstein video. I also got my first experience of hearing Hailey just completely laugh. There is nothing in this world that sings to my soul more than hearing a child laugh, and when it is a baby, oooooh I just LOVE it! I was making one of her stuffed animals peek around the corner, and then I said "BOO!" and it just made her bust out laughing! It was soooo adorable! I realize more and more how much I just love that little baby. :)

I am sooooooooooooo very very happy with America's choice for the next American Idol!! Taylor Hicks is just one entertaining person, and he deserved to win it this year. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! I have to say, I had such a hard time voting for him last night! The phone line was busy right up until the deadline, it was unbelievable! But I'm just so glad he won!!

The Lost season finale was a great one tonight. I think I have more questions now than I did before! I'm already in anticipation of next season, though. I never watched the first season, but I'm very happy I watched it this year! It's a good show with great writing!

And on a final note, the Buffalo Sabres won their game tonight against the Carolina Hurricanes. Since I live very near Buffalo, I want am a Sabres fan, and I want them to go all the way to win the Stanley Cup!!!

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Oh, How I Love A Good Bargain!

I went to Kohl's today with my mom, to browse around and see if we could find anything good. Well, I ended up buying two sweaters off the clearance rack for next winter. I was sooooo excited when I was in the checkout to find what the final cost of each of them were!

They were: $1.26 each.

$1.26.

Whoooooooo hoooooooo!!!! I was so happy that I made my mom and the cashier lady laugh! Hey, can't beat a good bargain like that!!!

Another bargain deal for me came tonight when I finally looked through a box of clothes given to me by my friend's hubby's cousin. She was a skinny minnie like me for a while, but apparently she's put on a little weight. So as I was sifting through the clothes, I came across several pairs of shorts!!! I had just been looking for new shorts yesterday while shopping, and even today. I didn't want to spend a ton of money, so I didn't get anything. And now have five "new" pairs of shorts, so I don't need to spend any money!! Yaaaaay!!! Happiness in bargains!!!

Sunday, May 14, 2006

To My Mom

First of all, Happy Mother's Day to all you moms and grandmas out there! I wish the very best to you, and I hope you had a wonderful day!

I'd like to take this time to write a little something to my mom. I know she doesn't read my blog, but I wanted to write it anyway. :)

Dear Mom,

Thank you. Thank you for all the things you've done for me in my 3o years of life so far. Thank you for being there for me at all my doctor's appointments since I've been a baby. There have been a gazillion of them, I'm sure! And to know that you still want to go to my appointments even now means so much to me. I know I have lived with PH for all this time, but it still scares me sometimes. Not knowing what test results will reveal when I go to my doctors sometimes really gets me nervous, but knowing that you are there no matter what gives me some relief. I thank you for that.

Thank you for all the support you've given me in the past several years, since I had to quit my job. I don't know how I'd make it sometimes if it weren't for you help. This includes everything from the exurcions to the grocery store to giving me stuff that I need. I appreciate it more than you know.

Thank you for the laughs we've shared, and it seems we share more and more all the time. I truly love you very much, and I am so happy that you are my Mom. I pray that you will continue to be for many more years to come.

Much love to you,
Daughter #1

Monday, May 08, 2006

Accomplishments

I have gotten so much done today, and I'm feeling damn proud of myself. Granted, it's not everything I had on my list of things to do, but I have to realize that I can't always accomplish everything on my list. I've done alot of physical things, however, and although I'm a little tired right now, there have been times when I'd be passed out by now if I had done what I've done! I guess I'm having a good day because the weather is nicer, and it's not so cold. Cold seems to effect how I feel, and how I'm able to do things. But I've done 2 loads of laundry, hung them up outside, changed the bedding, and vacuumed 2 rooms. I admit, the vacuuming is something I really should have passed on. It made me so tired, and that's why I'm taking a nap in a few minutes. But it soooooo needed to be done. The living room looked like the cat blew up, there was so much fur on the rug. I know, gross, but what can I say? I'm technically not supposed to be vacuuming, so since my mom hasn't been over here in awhile, I decided I just had to go ahead and do it!

I had lunch on my porch earlier, and I saw all these kids walking home from school. It got me thinking about when I was little, and I used to walk home with my sisters. And how much I'd be tired from walking. My school was only 2 blocks away (still is, I'm still on the same street I grew up on, just a different house!). My family would walk to church often, 2 blocks away since it's also where I went to school. We'd walk during the nicer weather, but it still was often hard for me to get there. I'd just walk really slow. My sisters and friends in the neighborhood would go on walks to Wilson Farms, and that was a bit further than school. Somehow I made those, too, but not easily.

I guess it just made me wonder why, as a kid, I tolerated the feeling I used to have after walking so much better than I do now. If someone asked me to walk around the block, I'd pass almost right away. I know that I would have a hard time making it, and I don't want to feel so tired and worn out afterward. Why did I never do that as a kid? I am thinking that maybe I thought alot of people felt the way I did after walking. I also think kids are more resilient than adults, and I just wanted to go along with my friends and family. Sometimes that makes me feel like a wuss today, but I guess I'm just smarter, and know I shouldn't push myself? It also makes me feel bad that I am not like everyone else, and a stroll around the block is something I wish I could do again.

Well, off for my nap. Just thinking of walking made me tired. lol

Calm Weekend

My weekend was nice. I went to the movies Saturday night with Mo and Dee. It was nice to see Mo, and I gave her a long hug when she got to the theater. She seemed to be upbeat, although I am most definitely sure she is still going through an emotional rollercoaster. It'll take time to heal, but she'll be ok.

We saw Akeelah the Bee, and it was a very good movie! We laughed at some of the words the kids had to spell. I said near the end that I felt very dumb watching it. Mo said she was sure half the audience felt that way! lol Afterward we went to Perkins for something to eat, and just chatted. The only reference Mo made to anything regarding her called-off wedding was that she wears her wedding ring sometimes, just not on her left finger. I didn't see it on that night, but it kind of made me sad. I don't know how I could wear it if that happened to me. I'd have to leave it in a box somewhere for a long time before I could think of having it on. But, that's just me.

I spent yesterday with my parents mostly. It was nice. We went to a couple stores, and then I went over to their house for dinner. I love my parents very much, and I'm glad that we are close.

I looked back at my last entry, and I have to take something back that I said about May. I said it was one of the worst months, and it almost seemed like I was belittling all the people I know who are celebrating something this month. I truly didn't mean to do that. May is a beautiful month, and to all my friends and family having a birthday and/or anniversary, I wish them happiness on their special day!

It's a gorgeous morning here, and I have so many little things to do around the house. Yet I'm still in pjs, and I feel like going back to bed. lol I know I won't, though. Not until this afternoon, when I seem to take my daily little siesta. Right now I must get my butt in gear, and get a shower in! I have laundry to do, bedding to change, vacuuming to attempt (maybe), lamps to make, etc. I'd exercise, but I think all that stuff will take up my energy, so I don't think I'll try it! Off I go!

Friday, May 05, 2006

Happenings

This week seemed to have gone by alot quicker than last week. Last week just dragged. I kept busy with things, but it just seemed like time was going by slower than molasses. Now suddenly, before I knew it, a whole other week has passed!

I'm feeling better than last week, emotionally. I'm not worrying about things too much. I wouldn't say I'm at peace, but I feel calmer on the inside. I'm glad for that, because for a couple days, I really thought I was going to have a breakdown physically. I can't get myself stressed out like I did, it's definitely not good for my health!

I've started working on a website for my jewelry. I finally decided that I had to just start it, and then maybe my sister will just put the pictures of my stuff on for me. It's coming along, and I like it so far! Right now, I'm just showing examples of what I make. If someone wants to order something, I will have instructions on how to do so. Since I only make one of something, it's kind of hard to have that displayed, and only having one to order. I haven't figured out how to do that yet! I will also feature tealight lamps soon. They have been fun to make, and I am using glass beads on those, too. There are so many things you can do with beads!

This month is one that I consider the "worst month of the year." The only reason I say this is because May has always been filled with birthdays, anniversaries, Mother's Day, and graduations/Communions, etc. I also call it my "broke" month. Not that I'm not broke any other month. lol But I'm planning on making a couple gifts this May, since I can't afford to buy everyone something. Hopefully they'll like it. If not, there's not much I can do about it!

Lisa is coming home on May 20th, and I didn't even know it! I knew she was thinking about coming home, but she said airline tickets were too expensive. I guess she must have found a cheap ticket! It'll be nice to see her, since we haven't seen her since the holidays. She is also driving home in June, for little Hailey's first birthday! And then, we get to go down south for her wedding in July. Three months in a row of seeing Lisa, yay!!

My best friend, Eve, is coming home for a week next month. I'm sooooo excited to see her! I miss her badly, and I wish she was back home. Her husband has filed paperwork to get transferred back to this area, but it's going to take awhile to find out the results. There's no guarantee that he would be sent back here. I keep praying that he will be! As much as I can't stand the guy, and that I'm happy Eve finally separated from him, I want him transferred here so that Eve and their son will be back here, too! She needs to come home!

Well, I must be off to exercise. It's getting to be addictive with me again. I'm especially obsessed with trying to get my stomach flat. I don't know why. I think part of the reason is that diabetes runs in my family, and I'm so afraid that I'll develop it, too. If you saw me in person, you'd probably slap me silly because I'm very thin. lol It's not a matter of losing weight, it's just a matter of building muscle. I'm not looking for abs of steel, I just want more muscle. Apparently, trying to build muscle in your tummy is very hard! Ok, off I go!