Daily Ponderings

We're dealing with super low temps this weekend. It's 11 degrees with a 1 degree windchill right now. The sun is shining bright as can be, but it sure isn't doing anything to heat us up! I'll be in for the weekend, but that's ok. I got my periwinkle beads that I ordered, and I've been working on bracelets. I want to make as many as I can with the beads I have before I post them anywhere. I've gotten many requests for pics and prices, but I need to see how much I can make first. I made a bracelet sale last night from a phriend in CA. Thank you, Imelda!! She bought 3 bracelets actually, and I sure hope she likes them when she gets them! My first sale of 2010! Whoo hoo!! :) I better get to working now before I decide to take a nap!!

In the past couple weeks, I have been having recurring dreams about fire. I wish they were cozy campfire dreams, or sitting by the fireplace romantic sort of dreams. Unfortunately, these dreams about fire have to do with a house fire, and trying to escape from it. I have even tried to come up with a plan of how to get Mittens out of here with me if my place were ever up in flames. It's caused quite panicky dreams, and I've often woke up feeling like I've lost something. It really makes me happy when I open my bedroom door to that huge ball of fur waiting for me to serve him breakfast. I know there has to be significance to why I'm dreaming about fire. Usually your dreams aren't literal, there is something else they represent in your life. So when I googled "dreams about fire," I found several interesting interpretations. One site said that dreaming of a fire burning down a house can mean one is consumed by passions. Another site also suggested a fire drea...

For the most part, my cold is gone. I finished the antibiotic I was taking on Sunday morning (evidently, I had forgotten to take one dose alone the way, which left me with one pill left, or else I would've been done with it Saturday night!). The sore throat is long gone, the ear has finally settled down. The only thing still not back to my normal is my energy level. It's frustrating. Saturday night I went to bed around 11:30pm (way early for me), and got up almost 12 hours later. I was able to do a few chores that afternoon, but by the evening I was pretty much whipped. Sunday I did laundry, but still was tired. I go through fatigue often, especially in the winter, while dealing with PH, but after being sick, it seems to be ten times worse. Today I went to pulmonary rehab for the first time in two weeks, and while I did good exercising, I was ready to crash awhile after I got home. I know it's going to take time to get back (hopefully) to where I was before I got sick. One ...

It's been several days since I posted about sick, and well, I've gotten a little better but not fully! Although I'd been using prescribed drops in my right ear since Friday, the ear hadn't really gotten any better, and my sore throat was still really bad. Especially at night and in the early morning hours. I woke up very early Sunday morning (5am) in such pain that I just didn't know what to do. I took an Excedrin since Tylenol doesn't seem to be helping much, and was awake for a couple hours after b/c of the caffeine! When I finally did drift off, it was 8am, and I woke up a little after 10. I finally decided just to call the on-call service at my PCP's office. The on-call doc got back to me about 45 minutes later. He sounded like he was on the highway, and I wasn't sure if he could even hear me b/c I could barely hear him. But, apparently he did, b/c he called in a script for amoxicillin! I took it 3 times yesterday, and so far today I haven't had ...

I am sick. Not only in the physical sense, as I've had a sore throat and now sort of a stuffy nose since Monday. Emotionally I'd say I'm sick as well. I haven't felt myself for awhile lately, which started the day Mason died. But lately there's been a lot on my mind that's been too much for me to deal with emotionally, and I'm trying to sort it all out. Maybe I'll feel better soon. Right now, I'm just trying to get over this stupid cold. So back to bed I go, for the third time today. I feel like all I want to do is sleep.

Due to the nasty cold weather, I hadn't been out of the house since last Thursday, New Year's eve. So, when my mom asked me yesterday if I'd like to try going to a few places, I thought sure. I got all ready to go, layered myself, put the hat, gloves, and scarf on, and was all ready! My mom picked me up and we went to McDonald's first to get something to eat in the drive- thru . There is a few stores near the restaurant that we wanted to go into after, so we just ate in the parking lot. I reached down to get my antibacterial lotion out of my purse, and I felt my nose drip. So I took off the cannula to blow my nose, and I see lots of blood. Oh, just wonderful! I had a nosebleed. I barely ever have nosebleeds like that. I mean, during the winter with the dryness of the season, there is some traces of blood when I do blow my nose. I know, gross and not what you wanted to know, but tough. I have to deal with it every day! lol So anyway, to get a full-out nosebleed is a r...

The holidays have come and gone, and I can hardly believe it! Every year it goes by so quickly, even though it feels like it takes to long to get there. I was ready for celebrating a couple weeks beforehand, which felt nice. I didn't feel like I was rushing around still trying to get things. I actually really liked the fact that we exchanged names this year. I think it worked out well! Lisa and Brandon and their little guy spent the entire day last Saturday trying to get here. The trip is so long anyway, but when they had to stop to feed B. every few hours or so, it made the trip a bit longer. But B. did very well for a 14+ hour trip! Thank goodness, he slept most of the way! Sunday afternoon, Lisa, Brandon and Joan stopped by with the little guy and food! What a difference a few months make, B. has grown so much. I was holding him and he was definitely a bit heavier than in July. But he felt so comfy in my arms! Eventually I had to hand him back over to Lisa because my arms were g...

Happy New Year! I really hope this new year and the start of a new decade brings about much positive change for everyone, and not just my family and friends. The world has been on a roller coaster ride ever since the 2000s began, and I'm just hoping that maybe things can be more settled. Maybe the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq will end very soon? Maybe an agreement can be reached by all major countries on how to resolve global warming? Maybe we can cure AIDS? Heck, maybe we can cure all diseases, including PH!! Ok, I'm reaching, but am I?? What will this new decade bring? I sure hope that more positives come out of this new year and these next 1o years that will make the world a better place. But I also hope the best for all those I know and love! Maybe 2010 bring much health and happiness to all, much success in everything you do!