This article doesn't describe my exact health situation, but it could really fit anyone trying to deal with a chronic illness. Everything written in it pretty much describes how I feel about not being able to work. Never, ever would I have thought of "retiring" at the age of 24, barely after starting my teaching career. If it wasn't for my doctor telling me to quit my job as a preschool teacher, I truly believe I would be dead today. I have spent years feeling guilty about not being able to work. Even though "I look good" on the outside doesn't mean that I feel fantabulous on the inside. I've often wondered if I could handle going back to work full time, or even part time, and I know the answer to that is no. I may be able to do ok at first, but on a regular basis, I just don't think my health would stand up to the daily grind, and I'd be back where I started 11 years ago when I stopped working. So I really do appreciate this article, and I hope others are able to understand that many people on disability feel this way, especially when it doesn't look like we are sick!