Friday, December 28, 2007

Christmas Exhaustion

It's hard to believe that Christmas has come and gone already. I rested so much just to get to that day, and then it flew by! I woke up Christmas morning, had some breakfast, and opened some gifts from my friend, Karen. She was way too good to me! I loved the gifts she got, too! I hung out with Lisa and Brandon. We watched Ice Age: 2, and Brandon made bbq ribs for part of our Christmas dinner at Mandy's. I got dressed and ready to go over there, and felt a little tired, but ok.

We left for Mandy's around 3ish, and my family was all there! We all tried getting things finished for dinner, and then enjoyed a very good meal around the pretty table Mandy had set up for us! Everything was very yummy: red pepper and shrimp soup, cream of mushroom soup, brisket, chicken, ribs, sweet potatoes (although I didn't taste them, I'm not a fan! lol), roasted asparagus, parsley potatoes, croissants, and some carrots and celery sticks. Whooo, I'm full just thinking about it again! We ate dinner, chatted for a little bit, and then decided to open gifts!

Opening presents was fun! We started out taking turns passing each other's gifts out, and opening them and ooooohing and ahhhhhing, but somehow it turned out to get a little chaotic. lol I don't know how Brandon liked my gift to him, Mandy told me she liked the necklace I made her, but didn't say anything about the shirts I bought, and my niece just wanted to play with one gift and not open anything else. lol But it was alot of fun! We thanked each other for our gifts, and then focused our attention to desserts. Mmmmmmm.

We had key lime pie, a very yummy Dutch apple pie from Rick, and brownies and assorted goodies Mandy made. Again, I am full just thinking about it all. We just sat around and watched my niece nuke plastic food in her plastic microwave, and then bring it around to each of us to "eat." It was quite entertaining!

Eventually I left with my parents. It was after 9 when I got home, and I felt so beyond exhausted that I was sick to my stomach. I guess it all hit me at once after I left. I usually take my Tracleer at 10:30pm, and my Revatio at 11pm, but at around 10:10, I took them both and went to bed. I couldn't even stand to brush my teeth at that point! I ended up sleeping for 11 hours. Ever since then, though, I still haven't gotten my energy back. I get tired quite often, and I'm not doing much. I understand that it's going to take a long time for me to feel my "normal" self before pneumonia. But it's really getting on my nerves!! lol

And so, on that note, I am off to get ready for bed. I went out to dinner tonight with a friend, and I am still really full and just plain tuckered out! Grrrrr!!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Christmas Is Soooooo Close!

It's hard to believe that it's already Sunday! I haven't been crazy crazy busy, but I've still been pretty exhausted by the end of my days. Wednesday I got to see my godson, and it's just amazing how big he's getting. I can't believe he's almost 7! He was very tired when they were over here, and Eve said that when she brought him to her ex-mother-in-law's, he instantly fell asleep when he got in the car. But it was nice seeing him, and he loved his gift!

Thursday, Eve helped me bring Mittens to the vet. Poor kitty, he had hot spots again, and as much as I truly did NOT want to bring him to the vet, I couldn't let him lick himself to death!! So when it was about time to go, Eve got Mittens out of the cupboard where he'd been chillin' out, and stuffed him into the canvas cat carrier I have for him. He was not happy, and he kept rolling the carrier onto it's side. lol We got him to the vet, and while we were waiting to be called in, 3 cats came out of their hiding spots to investigate what was going on with the crying kitty in the bag! It was just too cute!! So we got into the examining room, and the guy asking me questions went to weigh Mittens. He gained a pound since I brought him in July, and I had cut back on his food!! The little porker weighs 21lbs now! I showed the guy the hot spots, and he noted them, and then told me that Mittens might have to get his vaccines updated. I really made it a point that I did NOT want Mittens vaccinated, considering he is strictly an indoor cat. He said I could talk about it when the doctor came in, which was a few minutes later. Dr. G. didn't even mention the vaccines, which was a relief! But he was just so nice and friendly. He gave me tips on how to try to prevent hot spots from getting worse if this should happen again (which I already have a feeling it will :( ). And he checked Mittens out, and said he looked good besides the spots, which weren't all that bad. He gave Mittens a cortizone shot in the butt, and that was it. We brought the poor kitty back home, and he was relieved!! And so was I!!

Friday, I basically relaxed for the day until I went out to dinner with Eve and Erin. We decided to try a place called Muscoreil's, since I had a $25 gift certificate for it. OH MY GOSH, that was the BEST place evah!! I still can't get over how good the food was there! It was a bit pricey, but everything we ate was worth every penny! But of course, the best part was the DESSERT! This place is known for their cakes for weddings, bridal showers, etc, and I've had their cakes before, so I expected dessert to be good. I never expected it to taste like heaven! lol I had a piece of mini-ganache cake, and it was just indescribable. We shared a half bottle of champagne, too, and that was tasty as well! It was a terrific evening spent with my two best friends, and we had a great time!

Saturday, I relaxed most of the day until my whole family went to dinner for my Dad's 60th birthday, which was last Sunday. We went to a local Italian restaurant called Fortuna's, and that was tasty as well. After dinner, we all went to my parents' house for some cake. It was a nice time, and I'm glad that we were able to celebrate my Dad's special day together!

I was soooooo exhausted when I got home Saturday night. I don't know how I stayed awake long enough to wait to take my meds at 11pm. I went to bed very shortly after that. I think, even though I'm pacing myself and the things I do, that my body just isn't ready to handle too much at once after having pneumonia. It really does kind of stink, and it's rather frustrating. I wish I could handle more, but, I know that I just have to cool it and not push myself. Today I did nothing but rest, I didn't even get out of pjs! I'm not sure what's going on tomorrow, since the weather is going to be bad and very windy like it was today. So I'll probably just stay in again.

Anyway, one more day til Christmas, and I can't wait to spend it with my family at Mandy's house. I'm looking forward to it! I'm hoping all my family and friends and phriends have a wonderful Christmas with their families and friends as well!!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Almost Ready!

I spent most of yesterday afternoon trying to finish wrapping the majority of my gifts for people. I only have a few more to do, but they are little things, so that's not too bad. I was so worried I'd run out of wrapping paper, but I haven't!! I just can't believe Christmas is 6 days away! I guess the time spent waiting for it this year went by quicker, since I've been sick and pretty much have been in the house for most of the past 2 1/2 weeks. I'm still not 100% yet, but of course that'll take time. I am much better than when I first started out with pneumonia! But yesterday, I did too much, and now today I'm rather tired. So I guess I'm just going to have to keep taking it easy!

One of my best friends, Eve, called me a little while ago. She's home! She is visiting her parents right now for a few hours, and then she's going to bring her son over here to see me. He's my godson, and it just seems like yesterday I was holding him as a crying little baby! And now he's almost 7 years old! He is almost the spitting image of Eve, it's amazing! So they will be over here soon, and then she will bring him to his Grandma's to stay. She will be staying with me until Sunday. She'll be in and out most of the time, but at least she won't have to be entertained! lol

My sister, Lisa, and her hubby, Brandon, are arriving here on Friday afternoonish. They are taking 2 days to drive up from Raleigh, which is good. Lisa keeps saying lately how traveling, as much as she loves to do it, is making her so tired!! Weeeeeell, she's not the young 20yr old she used to be! lol Not that she's old, but driving very long hours can be taxing! I'm just glad they are going to take their time coming. I can't wait to see them, too! They are also staying with me, so it'll be a bit crazy for a couple nights with both of them and Eve! But it'll be fun!

Well, I must make lunch and wrap a few more gifts. I'm needing a nap soon, I hope I can take a little one before Eve comes! I'm tired just thinking about the days before Christmas!! lol

Thursday, December 13, 2007

It's Official

I have pneumonia. My cat scan results came in today, although I had to call them this afternoon to see if they got them. My doctor said it's definitely pneumonia. Her nurse asked me how I was feeling, and I did say that while I am feeling better than I was even earlier this week, my left lower side still is uncomfortable. I asked her if that's where the cat scan showed pneumonia, and she was like Yeeeeeeep, it's definitely your lower left lung. So my doctor ordered a Zpac for me, and I immediately told my nurse I can't take that because it made me so sick and dizzy the one time I took it. So then she ordered Keflex, which sounds familiar, but I don't think I've been on it before. Someone is supposed to go get it for me later this afternoon. So I guess it's alot more resting for me for several days! But with the weather, that's fine with me. It finally stopped snowing here, and we have a few inches of the stuff, and nothing is really plowed. Not to mention, it's freezing!! So, I guess it's good that I'm stuck in the house!

My mom took me out for a couple hours yesterday afternoon. I'm soooo thankful that the weather was alot better than today, and that I had some energy to be out. I finally finished Christmas shopping! I'm still working on a couple things, but I've been able to finish that up online. But after a couple hours, I was definitely done for the afternoon. I was so tired, but it did feel so nice to be out for a little while!

Then last night, a friend I used to work with at Headstart called and asked if she could pick me up so she could take me for a little drive to see the lights around the local park near us. It wasn't that bad outside, so I went. We chatted and saw the lights, and then stopped at Tim Hortons to get a couple of yummy hot drinks before she brought me back home. She came inside for awhile, and we talked. She loves my apartment, and wishes she had one just like mine. She is married, and has a house, though. Hmmm. lol Anyway, it was nice seeing her since it's been awhile!

Well, time for me to lay down again for a bit. I hope this pneumonia goes away SOON and doesn't come back!!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Cat Scan Done...

...and now comes the waiting for results. I really hate that they won't have anything until Thursday. UGH. I need an answer like today! It's just frustrating. It's not my doctor's fault, it's the tech people who read the scans and do the report. I don't know why it will take that long, but there isn't much I can do about it. I will call my doctor tomorrow just to see anyway if they heard something. So far today, I did cough up blood around 7am, and am now just feeling tired since I couldn't go back to sleep after that. Today is not that cold outside, and I felt like going to a store after my scan!! lol We were soooooo close to one store I want to go to to get Mandy a gift, but Joan had to get back to work. Maybe if I'm feeling ok, I'll ask my mom later if she just wants to go. I just need a little outing! Nothing major, but I'm so cooped up, and today is at least decent enough for me to get outside. We'll see. Right now I need a little nap before hosting PH chat at 1pm!

Monday, December 10, 2007

Another Test

I called my PCP's office this morning around 10am, and asked for her nurse. They told me she was with the doctor, so I left a message saying that I still feel crappy, I'm still coughing up blood (not a ton, but come on, it shouldn't still be there), and that my chest felt heavy. I wanted to know if there is another medicine I should be on, or what. They said she would get back to me. Two hours later, of course I haven't heard anything. My mom, in the meantime, had called me and asked how I was, and I told her I was waiting for a call from the PCP. I also said that it's getting to the point where I don't know if I should just go to the ER up in Buffalo. So she told me to call the PCP back, even though it was their lunch hour, and I'd get the answering service. So I did, and the lady who answered was kinda snooty. I told her how I called 2 hours ago, and she said that everyone was on lunch at that point. I snootily told her back that I just wanted an answer to what to do about still having bronchitis and coughing up blood, and she said "YOU'RE COUGHING UP BLOOD?????" I just simply said yes, and she took my info and said she'd pass it on to the PCP's nurse. Not even a second after I hung up with the snooty woman, I got a call from my PCP's nurse. She told me that my doctor wanted me to have a CAT scan done, just in case I do have pneumonia and it wasn't showing up on the chest xray. She had to call me back to let me know what time it would be scheduled. I guess maybe if I have a crisis like that in the future, I should just call the answering service during lunch, and tell them there's blood involved. It's kind of ridiculous that I had to wait that long for some kind of answer!

I called my mom back to let her know about the CAT scan. While I was on the phone with my nurse, my mom had apparently called Buffalo General to find out what would happen and who I would see if I had to go to the ER. There is a PH doctor there, but she would only see me if I had to be admitted. If I was an outpatient, they would refer to the pulmonologist I started seeing in Buffalo just in case I had an emergency such as this. To know my mom had called up there to find this out was a bit overwhelming, and I started crying. I didn't really say anything, and when I did, I couldn't help but cry more. And of course, that got her crying, and she said something incomprehensible, and just hung up. I felt so bad, I didn't mean to make her cry. It's just that this has been so stressful and frustrating to deal with. And I seriously don't know what I would do without my mom being there for me.

I ended up calling Mandy for awhile, and talked to her about what's going on. She made me laugh, too, with stories of the kids. A little while after that, I got the call from my PCP's nurse. I have an appointment tomorrow morning at 10:30am for the CAT scan. I just have to get the script from the office first, which is on the way to the lab. This is a relief, at least I hope it will be. I just want to find out exactly what's going on, and I just want to be better!

And now I need to lay down for awhile, all this crying and anxiously waiting for calls has got me pooped out!!

Saturday, December 08, 2007

A Smidgen Better

This evening was a tiny bit better than the rest of the day. I got up to make dinner around 5:30, and just watched news and chatted on the phone for a little bit. I took a shower after the news hour was over. That was a bit tiresome. Drying my hair got me tired, too. I almost felt like chopping it off, but I knew that I would never live with myself if I did that. lol My mom called me to see how I was today, and I just told her it wasn't a good day. And that I'm trying to realize that I'm not going to be 100% myself for a while. I am going to call my doctor back again on Monday if I am still feeling this exhausted. I will finish the antibiotic on Thursday, but I would think that by now I'd have a little bit of oomph. Oh well, not much I can do about it. I'm off to bed now, and I'm hoping tomorrow will be better!!

Frustrated

Today hasn't been the best day so far. I woke up actually feeling like it was going to be a good day. The achiness I've had on my left side wasn't so achy, which I was so thankful for. It's still there a little bit, but not as intense as the past few days. So I was cautiously optimistic that I might have a decent day. So far, I couldn't have been more wrong.

I have managed to do a load of laundry, but I had to lay down for a bit after I put it in the dryer and finally got dressed. I fell asleep until about 1:30, and felt a little better. Until I got off the bed. It seems like every move I make gets me so exhausted. I got the laundry out of the dryer, but it's yet to be folded, and I don't really care at this point. I did eat something for lunch, and then decided to try washing my dishes so I could clean all the fish containers. It took me an hour to get through all that, which is usually normal for me. What isn't normal is that I feel ready to pass out again. I am so beyond exhausted, and so beyond frustrated. I would cry, but I know that would just zap more life out of me.

I'm really sick of this. I'm tired of taking meds for this dumb bronchitis. I'm tired of being excrutiatingly tired. I'm tired of PH. I'm just plain tired. So on that note, I'm going to lay back down again, which I'm also tired of doing. The only consolation with that is that my wonderful kitty is always there for me, under the blanket. He knows when I'm not feeling well. He at least gets a smile out of me because he'll scoot his butt up against my legs, almost like he wants me to know he's there. Anyway, I sure hope I have more energy when I get up again. Because I really feel like I'm on my last straw.

Just A Quick Note

I am about ready to go to bed, but I just wanted to give a little update. Well it's not too much. I felt really tired this morning, and a bit achy on my left side where the ribcage is. So I eventually layed back down for awhile with a heating pad. I got up around 2pm, and I was able to do a few things that I really needed to get done. Such as working on a gift for a friend, and cleaning up a little. Then after dinner and a little tv tonight, I worked on some more gifts. I feel somewhat accomplished! It gets so annoying when I am just too tired or not feeling well to do things. Hopefully I'm getting stronger, though!

Well, goodnight! :)

Thursday, December 06, 2007

I'm In Time Out

I had been pretty tired, ok exhausted, for at least the past week. More so than usual, and it's gotten annoying! Monday I had an already scheduled regular checkup with my PCP in the late afternoon. I got up Monday morning, and within about an hour and a half, I felt so drop dead tired that I had to go lay back down for awhile before I could even get dressed! I did feel a little better when I got up, so I did some stuff before going, got dressed, and was on my way.

I check in, finally get called in to see my PCP, and her nurse came in to ask the usual how-are-you-feeling routine. I told her that I've been very exhausted lately, and wasn't really feeling that well at that moment. She took my blood pressure, and went searching for a thermometer to make sure I didn't have a fever. As I was sitting there waiting, a cough came out of nowhere, and I ended up coughing up some blood. I know, not pretty!! When my PCP finally came in, I told her what happened. She immediately thought maybe I had pneumonia. Oooooh great, just what I needed. She heard crackles in my left lung, and said I was going for a chest xray right after I left. She also prescribed amoxicillin, at a stronger dose than what I usually take when I'm on it. I told her I've had no fevers, no runny nose, no cough, no swelling, no nothing! She told me she would let me know what the results were on the chest xray, and that she'd see me again in 4 months, unless there are any other issues going on.

So I left and got the xray done. I had no idea what time the place closed, so I raced there since it was almost 4pm, and sometimes they close at 4. Luckily, they weren't closed! I got that all done, and when I went back outside, the snow had started, and it wasn't all that pleasant trying to get home. I picked up my dad, whom I had called to ask if he'd run into the pharmacy for me, and the drive there was horrendous. I ended up at one point, sliding into a car. No severe damage done to either car, and the car's owner was so very nice because we were honest about it. One the way home from the pharmacy, we took a different route, and it was like driving on an ice skating rink! And no one seemed to know how to drive on it. The car in front of me ended up in the other lane, and the car behind me would have smashed right into me if he didn't turn and end up going up the sidewalk and almost into a storefront. It was THAT bad out! And let me not even start on the jackasses in vans who decided to swerve around me and turn left while I was waiting to turn left. UGH, it still makes me mad!!

Anyway, I FINALLY get home on one piece, and I just take it easy the rest of the night.

Tuesday, I had to get bloodwork done, and my mom took me there. She then took me to the credit union to deposit checks I got from my jewelry party on Saturday (ca-ching!), and then she stopped at a local restaurant to get me some yummy soup and pizza bread! When she was dropping me off, she shut off the ignition, and I joked "What are you going to do, come in and vacuum for me?" She said she actually thought about it. lol She ended up doing that and a few more things for me. I can't tell you how much I truly appreciate my mom. I don't know what I'd do without her.

I finally heard from my PCP's nurse yesterday that my bloodwork was fine and dandy, and that I do NOT have pneumonia. Thank goodness!! However, I am still coughing up a little blood once in awhile, and she said for me to call on Friday morning to let them know if it's still happening. I think it's actually getting a tad bit better. Knock on wood. I've only done it once today, and it wasn't that much. Who knows what it could be. Maybe my left lung just decided to be ornary, I don't know!

And yes, for those wondering, I have been in contact with my PH specialist's nurse practitioner. I've called her a couple times so far, and she is passing the word onto my doctor. I told her if anything was more serious, I would go to the hospital in Buffalo, since they have a PH specialist there. Hopefully I won't have to do that!

I've been getting lots of rest, that's for sure. It's hard not trying to go out since I pretty much feel ok, but I have vowed not to leave my house for the rest of the week! I still have a few more Christmas gifts to get, and I need my monthly supplies from Walmart. However, I'm just going to have to suck it up and hang on til at least Sunday to see if I can venture out again. I just really want to make sure the blood stuff stops. No sense in me catching pneumonia for real!!

Time for some yummy soup!!

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Christmas Decorations

I thought I would try something new and different! I was playing around with my camera today, and I did a little video of all the things I put up for Christmas. I thought it would be more fun doing it that way than describing every last little thing. Which I could go on and on about. So I hope this works out! Maybe I'll do more of these video-blog entries! Sorry if it seems a little dark. I have no idea how to adjust the lighting for the camera. I had all the lamps on in my living room, and it still seemed dark. I tried!