Daily Ponderings

Yesterday was a rather busy day! I wasn't exactly sure what to do with myself for the day, so I decided after breakfast to walk on the treadmill, instead of waiting til after dinner later on. I wasn't even into walking for a minute when my mom called. She asked me if I had been praying about the apartment, and I said YES! Why?? She asked if I remembered a lady named Diane O. The name rang a bell, and I asked if she used to go to church. My mom said yes, and that Diane also loves animals, which I also remembered about her. Well, I guess someone told Diane about the apartment when it was in the church bulletin a couple months ago. But at the time, Diane was dealing with her mother who was dying from cancer, and she just didn't want to think about it. However, yesterday, she finally called. She apparently is extremely interested in the apartment, and is supposed to come this week some time to see it. I was soooo happy when my mom told me! I told my mom I was rather relieved b...

Remember the long hair? I mean the really long hair? Here's the last pic I took in July with the long hair: Here are pictures of my new hairdo, after getting many inches cut off today by my hairdresser, Megan! She was beyond excited to cut that much off, because I usually only let her cut off one or two inches. I really needed a little change, though, and although I thought I was gonna cry when she was finished, I LOVE my new look!! Whoooo hoooo!! Now if only I had a hot date tonight, things would be so much better! LOL!

I swear, I should change my blog to Daily Dreams. I've been keeping track of the ones I really remember lately! Anyway, I had one this morning about the apartment upstairs. In the dream, I gave my mom my 30 days notice of moving out, because she decided to rent the apartment upstairs to someone she didn't bother checking out beforehand. Then my mom got so upset, but I said I already had another place I was going to move into, and there was nothing to discuss. Then I woke up. Not a very long dream, but it certainly does describe how I've been feeling lately about the apartment. My mom has told various places about the apartment. She sent an application in to one of the local colleges. She had it advertised in our church bulletin for a couple weeks, but that didn't yield anything. She told me she wrote a letter to Caroline House, which is a home for sheltered women. Yesterday she told me the director called her to let her know she had a few people in mind who might want t...

It's been about a year since I last kissed someone. No, I don't mean like giving a family member a kiss hello, or kissing my dear little niece and nephew. I mean, a kiss kiss! The kiss I last had was nice. Actually, it was more than nice, it was pretty awesome. It brought along hopes of a possible future relationship, of more kisses and more hugs, of falling in love. It led to a Fall of hopes, a Winter of looking forward to the warmer weather, and, unfortunately, a Spring that just crumbled everything. The other party had doubts, I guess doubts that I couldn't quite understand, and I just started to pull away. The disappearing acts made me feel like I wasn't that important, that suddenly telling me about thoughts and fears and doubts was something that couldn't be done. It kind of made me feel a little worthless. I pulled my feelings back even more. I was confused, a little angry, a whole lot hurt, just a variety of things. The pulling back on my part actually helpe...

I am a creature of habit. I like doing a lot of the same routines every day. I like keeping things in order. I don't really change things around much in my house, everything has it's place, and that's where it usually stays. I think it's my Virgo personality! It comes out even in my jewelry. I try to come up with patterns that are askew and different, but I always end up making necklaces that have a precise pattern. I just can't seem to help it!! lol So, last night, I had to pull my bed away from the wall because poor Mittens got sick for like the 5th time that day (thank goodness he's alright today), and I had to get it up. I know, not the greatest story so far. lol Anyway, before I pushed the bed back to the way it was, I kinda thought, hmmmm, what would it look like to have my bed in an angle, coming from, the corner of the room? I thought about it, then decided to shove my bed to get it to the way I thought it would look ok. Thank goodness I no longer have t...

I was laughing so hard earlier telling Mason about this weird dream I had last night, so I decided I should post it. Why I dreamt it is beyond me! It's the strangest thing I've dreamt about in a long time, and it came out of nowhere! I dreamt that for some odd reason, my parents had two squirrels as pets, along with Shelby (she's their dog), and they were trying to get the squirrels to learn tricks. The squirrels had these little stuffed animals that my parents were trying to train them to go fetch. (Ok, now I'm starting to laugh hysterically again) I was getting irritated because I wanted one of those stuffed animals for Mittens, because it was the perfect size for him, and he needs a new replacement for his little stuffed bear because it has seen better days. I kept trying to get the stuffed animal away from a squirrel (neither of the squirrels had names), but the stupid thing kept getting it back. And then I woke up!! I do not know where that dream came from, but it...

Today finally felt like summer!! It shot up to 88 degrees, and I loved every minute of it! People think I'm crazy, but I really don't care! lol This summer is ending rapidly, and it hasn't been the warmest, and so when we get these few days of heat, I enjoy them immensely! I went out to run some errands today. I wore a cute tank top and a white skirt. I felt perty! And cool! I had to go to the post office, then to the drug store, and then I went to Niagara University to visit the people I used to work with. Unfortunately, most of the people weren't there for one reason or another! So I didn't visit for very long, maybe half an hour or so. After that, I decided to stop by where my dad works to visit the gals in the office. I chatted for a bit, and then found my dad in the pipe shop. He was hot and sweaty and bitching. What else was new! I left to go pick up my prescription, and then went home. I spent the rest of the afternoon just reading and taking a little nap wi...

Last night, my mom pounded on my side door around 9ish. She does that because she thinks ringing the doorbell is going to scare the cat, but she doesn't realize that pounding on the door actually scares the crap out of BOTH the cat and I!! I've told her this before, she apparently just doesn't remember! Anyway, she started saying something about going to Beaver Island today with Mandy and the kids, and I said no one ever told me anything about it. I told her I had to babysit today, and she asked what time. After I said around 2:30, she started saying that I could still go in the morning, and I just told her I wasn't going to try going and then babysitting a 1yr old. She got a little huffy at me after that, and I said that she should know me by now. I was just a bit irritated with her!! Some of my phriends have often made comments about family or friends not understanding why they can't do something, or how tired they get if they overdo it. I don't really experie...

I had a really nice day today, but I'm so exhausted now, that I might fall asleep typing this entry!! So please, on the off chance that I spell something wrong, or a sentence doesn't make sense, please keep in mind that I was pooped out when typing this! I didn't have any plans today, except to work on a necklace that is on my tray. However, things changed when Renee asked me about going for coffee with her and Dee! So I thought, sure, why not?? I finished doing some stuff around the house, like drying my hair, putting on makeup, getting a new tank of o2 in my bag, before I headed to Dee's house. She drove out to Amherst, which is about a half hour drive, to meet Renee at Starbucks. We got there a little early, so we just went to order our drinks. I wanted a vanilla bean frappaccino, but they had no cream. Ooook. So Dee wanted a strawberry lemonade smoothie thing, but they had no strawberry syrup. Ummmm, ooooook. What the hell do you have?? So finally Dee asked about ...

I got up earlier than usual this morning, around 8:45, so that I could get myself dressed and off to the hospital for bloodwork. My PT/INRs were lower than my PH doc wants them, so I had to start taking 4mg of coumadin, and now I have to keep going for bloodwork until we get the right adjustment. I got to the hospital 20 minutes before 1oam, and didn't get out of there until almost 11. Ugh, I hate having to go through the paperwork again when it's not a scheduled draw, and then wait until someone from the lab upstairs to come down because my blood does funny stuff. It was just alot of patient waiting that I had to do! I am hoping I won't have to be back very soon, but since we are still adjusting stuff, I'm sure I'll probably be back next week. I called Mandy to see if she wanted to go to the mall to a couple stores, but she didn't want to. So I went to the credit union, and then stopped at Wegmans to buy strawberries and more grape juice. The grape juice was on...

My neck is doing better than on Wednesday when I hurt it, but it's not 100% yet. I'm still doing the heat thing, and my mom gave me Icy Hot. As much as I hate the smell of that stuff, it really works! So if I'm really not doing any better than I am now by Monday, I guess I'll call the doctor. Just what I need! I finally took pictures yesterday of new jewelry I made in the past couple weeks. Today I need to get them on my website! I'm trying to get ready for the holidays, which may sound crazy, but hey, it'll be here before we know it! If I feel motivated enough later, I might work on earrings. We'll see! I think I'll go exercise for a bit. I've put it off the past few days with my neck, but it's not so bad today, so I'll just try it! Of course I'll quit if my neck feels strained. It's only walking, so should be fine! Have a great Saturday!

The good news of the day is that I didn't have any headaches!! Yay!! The bad news of the day is that I somehow injured the right side of my neck when I turned over in bed this morning while trying to wake up. I can hardly turn to the right, and I have a hard time looking down. All day I've been putting heat and ice on my neck, and I've taken a couple Tylenol Arthritis, which haven't done too much. I've taken a couple naps, too. It was just disappointing, to actually finally be headache free for one day, and then still not be able to do much because I hurt my damn neck. The first time I went to lay down with the heating pad on, I was soooo tired, and I just had tears coming down my face. I don't usually have the "woe is me" attitude, but it's just been a really tough almost 2 weeks to deal with in not feeling well, and I was just so hoping today would finally be a good day. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! I should really try to scream out loud, may...

I woke up this morning with a wicked headache. At least I could say it wasn't from ripping off my o2 during the night!! I think it was a Revatio/weather combination. A couple friends also told me they had bad headaches this morning, so I'm thinking mine was definitely a combo. I had to take an Excedrin Migraine at 1oam, and 2 hours later, I really wanted to take another. But, I put a heating pad on my shoulders/neck, and it seemed to help a little. I was tired most of the day, though. I went to chat this afternoon, which was preplanned for today by PHA. It was about exercise and nutrition, and many people came! I wish my chat was that busy!! lol After that, I had to babysit for a couple hours. I'm so glad the "chunk" is pretty easy to babysit. I just laugh almost the whole time he is here, since he smiles and gabs and giggles so much! He's just too cute!! I started to feel starving later in the afternoon, as if I never ate anything today. I felt like that las...

Today I got a lot done. I did my 2 loads of laundry, after I got up and took a shower. I took my time going up and down the stairs, but it wasn't too bad. I also worked on a necklace, and finished that after a couple hours. I was using the tiny seed beads again, those suckers drop like nothing!! I have at least 20 of them on the kitchen floor! But the necklace turned out really pretty! I really need to take pictures of the latest stuff I've made. I've got to update my website! I exercised after dinner tonight, walking on the treadmill for 10 minutes. I have to say that I feel different already on the Revatio. My chest feels like it can get more oxygen. I don't know, it's hard to explain, but I kinda like the feeling. I hope it keeps up! Well I just watched the men's USA gymnastics team win bronze, so I am off to bed!! Tomorrow I babysit, so I need energy!

I woke up this morning with no pain! This is probably because I took a Tylenol Arthritis before bed. It felt sooo nice to wake up without feeling so achy, and it lasted for the day. Thank goodness!!! I went to church with my mom this morning. The day started out sunny, yet a bit chilly. By the time mass was over, it was raining cats and dogs outside!! Then pretty much most of the day, it was raining. So I just stayed home to do nothing much! I wanted to get my dishes and laundry done, but all I did was the dishes. I didn't feel like going up and down the stairs to get the laundry! So that will be on tomorrow's agenda. I saw a cute guy at church today. He was sitting in the pew behind me, at the other end. I smiled at him at one point, and he did smile at me. But I didn't get a chance to say hi at the end of mass. However, he wasn't with anyone, and he wasn't wearing a ring. Two good signs! Maybe if he's there next Sunday, I'll say hi! My sister, Lisa, IM...

My Saturday started out a bit painfully. I woke up at 7am to take my Revatio, and I realized that once again, my legs and lower back were hurting. I went back to bed with a pillow between my legs, since that seems to help usually, but I had a hard time falling back into a good sleep. So I got up at 9am, since I told Mandy I'd call her a little after I got up to let her know for sure if I'd go to the Lewiston Art Festival . I wasn't feeling too badly, and I had finally taken a Tylenol Arthritis for my legs, so I told her I was halfway dressed to go! I finished getting ready, had breakfast, and fed the cat by the time she got here a little before 10. And we were off! After making a stop at the ATM, we got to Lewiston and found parking. I think we decided on the perfect time to go, since it wasn't totally crowded with people. There have been some years when I've gone, and it is sooooo busy that looking at stuff is hardly possible! This year, they closed off part of the...

At lunch today, my mom was telling me about when I was born. She said that she couldn't hold me or even really see me for the first 3 days of my life because she had some kind of infection. This I knew, since she had told me about it awhile ago. So I said "Well I'm assuming dad held me at least for those first 3 days." My mom just said "Why would you assume your father would have gone to the nursery and ask if he could hold his first-born daughter within those days??" I said "Now that is sad!" I was actually a bit taken aback by that, but when I think about it, it sounds like my dad. Maybe the thought of his first child having such problems already (my left lung collapsed when I was born) made him a little scared of holding me. Maybe he wanted my mom to be the first to hold me. Who the heck knows. I'd like to ask him, but I don't know if I will. I am just sad that neither of my parents held me for the first 3 days of my life. *sniff* I...

I made a couple adjustments to my blog layout again. I was tired of the butterflies! I went with the theme of where I'm from. The might Niagara Falls is the backdrop for now! I browsed through hundreds of pictures on Photobucket, and it was just so interesting to see how many people have actually photographed the Falls from all over the world. I would dare to say that there are a billion pics out there of the Falls. And yet, I don't go down there that often!!! It's only 5 minutes away, and I have yet to go this summer to see the fireworks down at the Falls. I always say I want to go, and I keep forgetting!! I am going to try my best to go tomorrow night. Since the weekend might be crappy, I should just try to go tomorrow!! My Tuesday was alright. I went for the bloodwork around 10:30, and waited almost a half an hour for the paperwork to be done. Then I had to wait about 10 minutes at the lab before they could draw me. And then the girl couldn't find my vein, which was ...

It's hard to believe that this weekend is already over. Some of it went by so quickly, and some of it was rather slow. Friday night, I went out with my sistores, Mandy and Joan, and Joan's friends, and that was quite fun! We went to a bar called The Bakery. It used to be a bakery, many moons ago. Now it is a bar/restaurant. They have phones on all the tables, and numbers above each phone. You can call the other tables with the phone, which I think is cool! Of course, I didn't try it, although I should have! We left the bar around midnight, and I got ready for bed and chatted online until 1am. I had to get to bed so I could sleep a few hours before Eve and her boyfriend, Jody, got here. They didn't get here til 5am! She called me when she was 5 minutes away, I opened the door for them, they brought all their stuff in, got the air mattress from upstairs that my mom had inflated (it deflated in the meantime), and we all went to bed! Saturday, I hung out around here during ...